三语鸣枪 Triple Trinity

Trip and Trilogy

2011-06-27T15:47:00.002+08:00

Who knows what will happen next, a scene which gives you whole BIG Teaching?
and the unexpected scene will be even BEauTIFUL when you sacrifice something,
for example
You taught someone on some skills which he doesn't really knows and the next moment both of you being tested on the same skill, yours is no doubt better but the outcome is, the one you taught was selected...
(-_-lll)
But, what happened next was, you are being put into another event, which is meant to improvise your skill and make it developed larger and learn to make a skill to be uniquely yours...

So basically that's how a deal is,
you make way for yourself to step even bigger steps and move bigger paradigm
///Which you give others a chance to pursue something else, and you yourself gained something after that...

not bad deal right?
teaching others, and you make yourself to meet another teacher to teach you
I LIKE~~~hehehe...sincerely with my heart

sometimes, in life is filled with unfairness,
its just up to us to view it in what perspective and perceived from it...
sometimes, this minute is unfair
but when you accept it with open heart, you found yourself in even greater condition at the next minute..
when you come back to THE ONE, you will also find yourself,
you are THE LUCKY one

so appreciate every seconds and every steps you take
it took some painful ride at first but next moment, you probably walking on flower garden...

第一次，拿到奖杯！！！！还手抖！！

2011-03-29T10:01:00.004+08:00

有组队，到自己去培训朋友，到比赛，

全全有我包办，因为学长提要说，

“你自己去组队好吗？然后去培养新选手...”

组队的时候还真是头疼，也很难选///

因为自己知道，不是人人能够配合我的压力和要求...

死人个性般，就是认真起来，可就没有给队友玩玩的空间甚至怠慢...

而且我这张嘴，对辩手时没什么嘴下留情...

因为都说是辩手，就要懂得接受批评和正面评论...

当然，也没说我很厉害，没缺点，

我也有很多不完整的地方，也需修改得点...

可重点是，要组队，就一定专门找能互相配合的人...而且是三人之间

要配合默契好，培养速度要快...要最短的时间内找到彼此的“舒适地带”

比赛第一场，输掉，当然也接受了评判们的个角度评论和建议...

也当然，要当时直接纳入和修改

接着就连续夺得胜券，虽然是险胜，

但是这已经是新组队的最大能力以及能耐了

要求再多也没用，因为只会施加更大的压力在新手身上

而且，其中两位是偏头痛的患者，你说在施压多点，就什么也做不到~~~

可是他们两位，其实到半决赛时，就开始隐隐作痛了，

幸好是决赛...要是在半决赛就开始头疼的话，完蛋了

可是我们《马来西亚空军一号队》就是不一样！！！

一位夺得积分赛全场最佳辩手第三名

一位夺得积分赛全场最佳辩手第一名和决赛最佳辩手

还有

全队，拿下《冠军！！！》

Its not just about Debate, it's life

2011-03-08T01:34:00.002+08:00

In Malaysia Debate Open 2011,

I saw 97 teams, from 11 nations, came to one country,

attended for a International Debate Tournament,

to debate...

Not just that...

Think about it again,

We had participating teams from Morocco, Thailand, Japan, Singapore, India, Korea...and the rest...

Speak of different mother tongues, different skin colours,

some representatives PAID BY THEMSELVES

...money isn't problem and matter most...

its the spirit of Debater...

In which, drives every debater in the nation,

gather together and Salivary Bullets~~

There's no border of language,

its just the border of International Airport...for screening perhaps

There's no limitation of ideas,

its just you tried to debate or not,

There's no endless 7 minutes,

it's just whether you tried hard to debate

After the tournament,

everyone will be going back to their country,

leading their normal life again...

BUT

it's gets even criticize on issues and aggressive updating...

This do includes me,

and we bring debating into life...

Bcoz it debates doesn't end with the tournament,

it's just another tournament to catch,

it's just another beginning of whole new Debater

我，无形的阻碍

2011-02-14T16:01:00.002+08:00

因为遥远的过去，而带来现在的巨响...

也因为这巨响，很多东西是无法改变或扭曲，

为只有把局势变好一点点...为只有把巨响的影响减到最低，到抹去为止...

是的，我自己同校同年的朋友，数极少数，

能给我像现在能开嘴巴聊天的人，几乎是没有...

好朋友？

恐龙蛋就有...

可是，努力，和不断向神祈福和努力上进...

而有了些巨大的改变，和巨响，相互抵消，

缘分，靠过来，给了很多特别的人，出现在我人生里

个个，都给我很大的教导,,,学了好多

即使是已经变得很好的我，也还在学习，因为老实说

还真的还没学成...

可是，现在就有了很多阻碍。

这个阻碍，其实是很自然的发生，可是你们没发觉到而已,...

当你发觉，话题有些瓶颈的现象，或者是

起初是能够搭线，现在有点难接上的话

那么以下的东西，就是解决方案...

1. 年龄的隔绝，你在第一时间时，没有完全去除掉...所以就会好像《很难跟老人家讲话似地》

其实，是心理作用而已...慢慢消化，也是可以接上的

2. 有时讲话的时候，有些不明白之处，你没又指出来，而把这些不明之处，尤其是深的词汇...当此情况累计起来，会在过后的一段时间浮现...而你就会以为我在《文言文》，其实我已经够《白话文》了

秘密，已近公开了，

你会选择什么呢？

You and WOW!!!

2011-02-13T23:56:00.003+08:00

I believe when you come nearer to me,

getting closer to my life,

in-depth of looking at my past stories,

You won't find my ARCHIVES, HISTORY nor CACHED

Because, I don't have it and don't have the way to portray it...

Because, I don't have any His-story which is complete and ideal as yours...

Who would expect what you see me as in front of you,

had something in the past which is hard to imagine and experience it,

furthermore, to live with negatives??

Dark and Sorrow?

Thorns and Spikes...That's all I can describe to you...

As I don't have anymore reason for me,

to re-tell the past...

'Coz I have YOU already,

the reason and strength to face my own past,

the evidence which makes me Cheerful than I was,

the full-witness to my changes...

Brothers, Sworn-brothers and God-brothers...

You existed,

and lived beyond...

So meaningful and grateful...

And owh!! Dear brothers, recently there're few more

NEWLY-met friends crashed into my life...

Interesting is it?

What's more amazing is, they are also unique like you all...

Getting to know a bunch of abnormal really makes my life wilder and

UNEXPECTED EVENTS

WOW!!!!!!!!!

其实，没什么好再嫌了

2011-02-12T15:50:00.002+08:00

老实说，神啊祂对我真的很好...

在我需要一位能陪我聊的时候，会指引我去找谁人...

失落的时刻，需要找人来安慰时，也会有他来陪伴和度过...

每当，真的需要的时候，闭上眼睛，静下心来，跟神说话...

别要求，而是...<可以给我个暗示吗？>

因为你本身已经知道要找的是人，明知还故问做么？

当你眼睛打开是，细细的蛛丝马迹就会冒出来...

是你有没有注意到，祂已经给你答案了...

有时，当你做好事，做了对的东西和奉献给友人一些东西时，

祂，偶尔会给你些礼物，而且，次次都是很大的惊喜...

最近的一次，就只是单纯的在某知名的社交网路，留了言，

聊到位，他们称他位，Kopi-O...讲真的啦，很黑下不过很均匀...

只是，你们没看过我最黑的时候...变印度人罢了..

结果，被《add》过后，情局就一发不可收拾...

《多数缘分安排的朋友，一定是很特别的类型...这个是事实，因为我已经经历无数次了》

合拍？还好啦，似乎这名新朋友还没热起来，

好聊是好聊，可是陌生感，还是抹不去，

毕竟，

有些人，还是要真正见过面才能生感情,,,

因为建立友情不涵涵只是用文字就可以建立的，

喘气，表情，气味，语调，声音，速度

全部都考量在内，只是人们大多数没发觉自己为什么会建立起那道墙的原因...

六个要求，就这么的难应验...建造和维持呢？

更不在话下，

写博客三天三夜都写不完...

较早前，或更准确的说应该是整整七年的人生，

我说过

好寂寞...很疲惫...没真正的那位...甚至一群...伙伴

不过，现在，真的好转很多...

好到有时会问神，为什么那么作弄我，和那么迟？

也更令我好奇的是，就算是遇见了这位特别的朋友，我都要去克服《年纪差距之墙》

困难重重...才能做朋友，说实在的，没磨练好的人，一定会失去这些很好的朋友...

现在，真的，还蛮多，伙伴，还好兄弟...

还何求什么？当然还有///

那就是，维持，和升温点，别冷却下来...

就真的很快乐了...睡觉都可能会笑呢~~~

其实，真的已经没什么好再嫌了

很·满足，我一定珍惜你们..

After-Tournament Debat KHAR 2011 Refleksi

2011-01-10T01:05:00.003+08:00

Apa yg ingin saya perkatakan ialah,

1. Terima kasih,

kepada Abang Shahril yg cukupx100 komitted utk mengasah saya menjadi Ter yg lebih baik dpd sebelum ni,

walaupun, saya sendiri kena akui ialah, x lah byk mana pun penambahbaiakn dpd saya, tidak setimpal dgn usaha yg kamu keluarkan itu...

Namun hanyalah sebyk ni jer yg dpt saya pulangkan kpd kamu, senior saya yg saya sanjungi. Harap2 nex match serta mock dan sparring kan dtg, akan ber-anjak dan melangkah ke tingkat yg lebih tinggi.

Insha-Allah

2. Terima kasih juga,

teammate saya yg begitu tegas dgn team yg sama semasa NC lagi,

saya amat bersyukur dpt berkerjasama sekali lagi dgn kalian dgn nama KAB!!!

iaitu Miza dan Marziah...

walopun kekadang saya ni ter-nervous sgt serta ter-tekan kalian, saya pohon maaf...ttp ni merupakan satu2 personaliti saya dlm perdebatan , biarpun english atau BM, hanyalah menjadi semakin tenang shj, saya rasalah~~~

mohon maaf dan terima kasih atas sudi utk berkerjasama dgn saya selama ni...

3. Terima kasih,

Ribuan terima kasih buat juri2 serta hakim2 kali ni,,,

saya mendpt variasi input drpd anda semua, biarpun dpd Abg Amir, Abg Fawiz, Kak Aini, Abg Bai dan lain2 juri lagi...

Terima kasih atas sudi mengongsi komen2 serta komplimen2 kpd saya sgb tujuan penambahbaikan utk performans akan dtg...

Namun ingin saya kongsi pendapat ialah...

++Utk membina seorg pendebat BM yg ibundanya bukan BM adalah memerlukan sokongan serta usaha dpd anda semua senior secara berterusan, ini buka pandangan peribadi saya seorg, saya anggapkan senior semua tau juga kes Shen Yee Aun dan Lee Te Chuan, mrk ni bukan shj inisiatif dan komitmen sendiri semata2 namun, snior ada peranan juga...Oleh itu harapkan seandainya ada chance utk perform di depan anda semua, sya minta jgn berhati perut, cakap shj apa yg kamu iniginkan serta mintalah juga jln penyelesaian bg sya adanya hala tuju yg lebih jelas serta fokus++

5. Jurulatih juga ingin saya say Thank you

Abg Azwan, this is d 2nd time for me receiving your honourable comments and focuses after Debat Perpaduan. Yeah, I hav 2 agree is, very d very profesional, ur comments mmg akan saya berkiblatkan serta termaktub terus dlm kitab debat saya juga...

Thx 4 ur profesionalism and ething elses....hope 2 c u again, not far away from dis...

I am a Bilingual Debator, so what???

2011-01-10T00:13:00.002+08:00

I do not meant to show off my identity in debating arena nor any whatsoever reasons you may come out with...

I just want to clarify this,

1. I am a Malay Debator as well as an English Debator!

2. English debating is my major, while Malay debating is my minor in my debating identity!

3. When English and Malay debating clash at the same time, I would have to choose English Debating, I'm sorry for that. I know my seniors especially in Malay debating, I know its hard effort from you to train me to stand on-par with the others, but this is life which is full of choices, I had to chose...

4. I love both the language and the friends, the bond made, the sakit kepala and the peluh-peluh...That's why I still chose both side, with a stable stance...

There are a lot of bilingual speaker out there dear all senior reading this, because I saw them performing in both very different arena and styles...

But they attain stability between both language and I believe I can do it as well!!!

Believe me I can do it!!!

Don't you see and saw what I had presented to you regarding recent tournament??

Not just want to show you I have made some improvement and paradigm shifts,

its also a prove from me in which

1. I can be different

2. You had trained me well no matter its English senior or Malay senior debator, both!!!

3. You had trained to another level in which I get and gain more compliments and growths

4. It also means that you have more things to teach me, and push me even harder, please!!!don't be too kind or care whether I will pain or not, just push!!!!!

I miss and hope to fight the game with you once again and wished to fly even higher with you,

BUT

before that you need to teach me hw use my leg to walk and hw to use my wings to fly, not just the effort and numerous strength and commitment I put in...

Thank you,

you all my senior

you all the best speaker in my mind!!!

AND

I will b the NEXT

A drop of tears to share

2010-11-29T00:52:00.002+08:00

Life and Growth are irreversible,

and once you are born onto this earth,

everything is pre-destined...

Thru' my life, never do I imagined,

once wish it is now happening...

Back in years, you are playing with your parents,

the smiles, laughs and unstoppable happiness,

without any responsible we would need to pay

nor

having the intention of knowing the weightage of it...

Sincerely, I see it Now...

Sincerely, everything started to change its position,

and neither you nor me could slow it down and stop it down...

Sincerely, we are accepting what we had wished for,

when we are young...

The very classic and latest example...

"Mum, fret not, I'm wi my frenz heading to Ipoh in car...

Believe me, he can drive wat it takes in the Highway,

Believe me too, you know I won't hop onto anyones car for Highway rite?

Relax Mum, everything will be fine k? "

This was what I had told my mother, hoping and comfort her worry and anxiety...

What it takes and confidence on saying that?

For all over my age till now,

Highway is as though my 3rd home,

No one will claim he is better knowing than me about this,

No one could ever confidence in that...

When I was young, mom and dad always wanted me

to open my eyes brightly and stay awake as possible...

To help them to look at the roads situation and roadsigns,

To chat with them in order to make sure themselves are awake...

That kind of request, I'm sure everyone knows it is very demanding

from a child of age 4-12...

They would fall into sleep for sure,

because its anyhow a 7 hours destinations every time we drove

from BP to Kampar...

I questioned this matter,

and it seems it had been cleared recently...

With the conversation in the phone call that I show it at previous paragraph...

We started our journey from Tg Malim to Ipoh,

too visit a friend in Ipoh Hospital...

"Ter, help me watch out the road..." said Syafiq...

Unconsciously, interpreted as

"Boon, help me watch out the road..." said Mum...

My tears almost pops out,

because I miss my Mum??Nah...

because thats the sentences they used for the past 16years...

because I found it is so, nostalgic and secured, just like sitting next to my parents...

because I found out that, I'm no more sitting beside them in Highway for the 1st time...

Could you imagine,

I don't care whether you all will say what when I saw YOU accelerated to >120

I would make lots of noises...

I don't care it would be tortoise speed when we are the back of lorries or heavy vehicles,

I don't want you to take over because of that situation,

because I knew those blind spots and corners

because I knew the road condition...and I know how fast YOU and YOUR car react...

My training, the habits I behold...serves it purpose

And now,

I realized that, things starts to change,

Yesterday, mom and dad drove, with me at the back seat...

Today, my friend drove, with me at the 2nd driver seat...

Tomorrow,

it will be my turn to bring you, Mum and Dad...with both of you seating at the back seat

watching me drive and ensures me all the time on Highway...

I felt so unbearable for the tomorrow is coming,

I felt so fast to grow up and apply everything that you taught me...of Cars and Roads

I felt so proud of you,Mum and Dad, coz' whatever you put on me, shares off with my friends..

I feel proud and happy and touching...

It would be nice and I'm sure when times come,

I will let you seat at the back, relaxing and enjoy the trip...

I will treasure that day to come and all coming days

Thank you...

I know what I need to Choose...

2010-11-18T23:19:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, we may not know whether it is time to let go or not...

So as a Buddy,

I do not intend to let him go,

nor demote his Level in my heart...

nor accepting a new one...

What I want is, Him,

is just more than enough, just one Buddy

I had get used to his existence,

I had get used to his Chatterbox

I had get used to his way of doing...

How I wish, to continue and just nice,

BUT

Sometimes AFFINITY charge in

AND

gave you a new decree, a new instruction

How do I know that?Do affinity whispers?

No, its your life,

The answers is just beside you,

the hinting is just at the corner of your eye,

Did you ever realized?

I had tried it and experienced it

and it always does without fail...

A lot of symptoms and things happened,

And the new one,

His role-play became even prominent,

His existence became even more un-deniable

There just one same event happened just like my Buddy,

Two at once...

Meaning there are two people increased in role-play...

And OH-God,

Don't play with me again,

I am not good at this kind of situation deciding...

But, it seems that I had found my answer,

I know who to chose...

And it seems that Affinity doesn't tell me give-up the one I had,

Maybe this time, I would have two buddies,

And of course this is a rare event in everyones life...

I know who to choose now...

Luckily its not choosing girls

人的，难得可贵

2010-11-18T01:36:00.003+08:00

有此可见，我们华商子弟，
其实很重视友情，
只是那张嘴，不认而已...

可是大家要明白，你不说
对方是不知道你有多么的在意
《友情》
的你知道吗？

人，有张嘴，是让你说出你的不舍，
不是让你在那边躲一旁害羞///

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还蛮准，中很多点的~~

2010-11-17T02:31:00.002+08:00

属马的人性格很奇怪,有时候超爱说话,有时候可以一天不说话,高兴的时候,会拼命的说话,不高兴的时候,一句话也不说.

属马的人不爱记仇,但谁对他好谁对他不好,他还是记得很清楚的

属马的把真实的自己藏于半夜的寂静和午夜明朗的笑声中.

属马的最注重的就是安全感.希望被保护,却常常是一个人.

属马的不容易爱上一个人，但一旦爱上便很难自拔。一旦受伤，总是被伤的很深。只有几个贴心朋友

属马的是个很爱撒娇的孩子、总是很依赖别人

属马的喜欢海,喜欢顾影自怜.喜欢自己舔伤口.

属马的性格很古怪而又孤僻,他们会突然在大笑中沉默,感觉悲伤.

属马的心里想什么从来不说.别人也猜不到.

属马的嘴上说不在乎、心里却早已悲凉、心里的那把火早已熄灭 .

属马的选择了沉默、不在像以前那样挚热的去追求某样东西 .

属马的总是很爱回忆、回忆以前的点点滴滴、以前的大小事只是默默的想着.

属马的座的人天生敏锐，与生具备的第六感，对人的内心有超乎寻常的洞察力，但他会把这些东西放在心里，属马的人可以把你的眼神、内心看得很清楚，但却不会告诉你，他用旁观的态度判定虚伪 .

属马的人不懂甜言蜜语，不屑拍马屁 .

属马的人本能的排斥虚伪和做作的人 .

属马的人不会真的发火，就算生气，也很快忘记！

属马的人只对真正懂他的人，展示他的创造性，他的情绪他变得冷淡就证明他开始对你重新审视，当他越是沉默，就代表他越是生气 .

属马的人可能看起来很凶，其实内心是最柔软的 .

属马的人看起来很冷淡，但那只是保护自己的方法 .

属马的人很重视友情，但被伤害后绝对不再友善 .

属马的人很容易被感动，但感动中又保有理智 .

属马的人可能看起来很坚强，其实是最脆弱的 .

属马的人可能很爱哭，但他的哭并不代表认输 .

属马的人可能看起来很笨，其实大智若愚 .

属马的人可能做事很毛躁，但内心很细心 .

属马的人天生敏感和细腻，却会用心鉴定 .

属马的懦弱，受了伤之后，只知道躲在无人的地方独自哭泣 .

属马的虚伪，明明已经心痛到无法呼吸，还要在最爱的他面前假装坚强；不轻易让任何人走进他自己独自的世界

属马的笑容，无论开心或者悲伤，他都是一脸笑容，笑容，是他们伪装自己最好的武器，

属马的眼泪，从不轻易让人看见，他的泪，从来只有她知道，只是，谁又知道，在巨蟹的笑脸背后，埋藏的是深深的悲伤，笑的越开心，伤的越深 .

属马的退缩，属马的，永远不会轻易说爱或者喜欢，除非真的喜欢到了极点，否则，要他们表白几乎不可能，但是，一旦表白，他们就是不遗余力的付出，即使知道这样做换来的结果可能是深深的伤害…

属马的，永远只可能做同一件事两次，表白也一样，同一个人，只可能听到他向你最深的表白两次，两次之后，就是绝对的安静了…即使仍然深爱着，他也没有勇气再说第三遍我爱你…他的退缩，不能重复一件事第三次 .

属马的愚蠢，不懂的怎么挽回深爱的人的心，只能自己心中默默的祝福和祈祷。

受了伤的马，只会在角落独自忍受锥心的痛.

属马的：体贴第一名，爱吃第一名，爱家第一名，孝顺第一名，多愁善感第一名。

如果你爱上属马…请你疼爱生肖马。。。哈哈。。。

Its Good To See Your Smile

2010-11-09T00:31:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, a montage(剪辑) requires a very unique song...

Which is compatible to the theme and pictures you put in,

We do not deny that Emos(感触) songs are effective,

BUT try not to do that,

Because a Happy and Rhythmical Songs

can do the same effect to people...

We just want the audience to feel our feelings,

The appreciation which we cannot really spell out,

To bring out the memories that lies inside every picture,

Touching is not exactly we want for...

What we want was actually,

YOUR PRICELESS AND BEAUTIFUL SMILE=)

That's why it's worth it

For us to pay for hours,

For thousands of brain cells,
For limitless tears that we may purge out upon doing it，

All worth it and paid-off weren't because TOUCHED,

Its

You Smiled, that's what I pursue...

Finally, I accept it

2010-11-01T21:13:00.000+08:00

For such a long time,

of endless day and nights...

Being haunted by the past memories of mine,

Being terrified by living things namely-humans...

Never do I would tell the STORY,

Never do I thought of telling it with courage and determination,

Never I did to tell again...

Because after telling, especially towards close friend,

something will definitely changed,

by means of treating,

by means of quality of friendship...

For example,

Throughout and after the story, I'm gonna be sensitive...

or easily to be in sulk mode or sulking(merajuk)

Due to awareness of my sensitiveness,

he will try to keep away to step on the mines...

Try not to sulk me...

BUT the reality is, did you ever asked for my permission,

to allow you to avoid?

I do not mind you accidentally stepped on the mines of mine,

I do not mind to exhaust some energy to get sulking,

This is where we learn to respect and knowing each other,

your best pal sensitive and weak point...

I do not need the sympathy!!!

But, on the other hand, maybe

it is restricted to some individual only,

just have to go and search again, the right one...

Because everyone-close friend have the rights

to know the story-embedded of his partner...

And I reach here, a new place, new surrounding and people...

AND

Last but not least, I met him,,,

I will not tell anymore about this new friend,

because its still early to define everything...

BUT I won't and ever miss a chance...

Trust me,

Everything will become different...

Starting from changing the Blog page and Name...

Wait and see

Expect the Unexpected...

Toss Coin

2010-10-28T22:32:00.000+08:00

Sometimes its hard to make decision,

AND

this is when, a traditional way comes in-coin tossing...

The ability to control multilingual,

is what my mother planned all this long, 16 years ago,

L1=Mandarin,mother tongue

L2=English

L3=Malay Language

Everything seems normal to me and I'm proud of it,

and my Mum,

That is in daily normal circumstances and conversation...

Imagine, what if its for Competition usage?

Imagine, what if all 3 languages you could command are entitled for the same Competition?

Imagine, what would you choose?

I'm new for all of these, debates...

Fluency is to be questioned, ideas have to flows together with what you could convey...

Spontaneous is no question,

BUT

Decision is the problem...

What all I could to is,

may God show me the way,

lead me and

tell me what shall I do...

AND a sudden idea runs through my mind,

"Coin"

Yup, coins, that you always gave it to the waiter for tips,

It may seems to be little and a standard for values,

BUT

it also gives you and enlighten you in this kind of situation of mine...

Coin tossing is also a very important

and

THE only way to determine whether your team

is Affirmatives or Opposition

...

AND

very tradition and pre-destined for me to toss again,

for myself...

Since decision had been made,

then all I could do for now and on is,

COMMITTED...

Try toss coin,

when it comes to 2 separated decision...

你不知道的事

2010-10-23T12:30:00.000+08:00

诉说三年前，的一段往事，一段怎么也抹不去的回忆

突然回想起此事，也多拜于年底得到来所赐，

中五生要毕业...面对人生的下一站的到来...

当日，最后周会结束时，

个个拿着自己的入考证，个个勾肩搭背，

看着自己兄弟的脸孔，最后一次归为学生，

穿着校衣，汗香和熟悉的体味...

照相机，一闪又一闪的...

一张张《同在一起。最后》

千变万化的post，

但，个个是满满的笑容...

而我，

只能看，不能拥有，

一个人独自踏校门，没人在背后呼叫你，

也都没人在校门外，等着你，邀你去爬爬走

踏出了校门...

那是，三年前...那么，一年前呢？

回来再次挑战中六，再次向自己挑战，

可是环境已不一样，大家都是一班自己同校来的

都各自铸建自己的岛，自己的围墙...

再高深的破冰技巧，都难熬

再怎厉害建桥，也未必能上得了这些岛屿，

但是，最基本的联线还是做得到，

只是，友谊质量上就会受到迟疑...

可是，这个结局，就好了点，

真的起了变化，意想不到的点点

就，照片，祝贺语，和“再见”

虽然出校门还是我一人，

但是这次是满面笑容...含泪走出去的

世间很多事是难料的，

只要肯努力，

只要愿意去试看，

结局，一定会在你意想的范围的！

加油吧！！！

From B-1 to F-22

2010-10-23T02:41:00.000+08:00

B-1 refers to the plane which release endless bombs and almost limitless quantities...

Well the job is-bombs anything in sight...

Thats why it is also called as, Lancer...

F-22 refers to the stealth jet, which attacks targeted targets specifically,

limited bombshells, but of heavy duty...

Carries the name, Raptor...

Both of them are deathly war machine, but I am not going to talk about War...

Trying to make connotation into Debate arena...

Yup, especially applies onto a 3rd speaker,

of only rebutting opponents ideas and arguments,

Detects the cracks and slits of opponents speech...

Target on sight, Bombs-away...

Sadly, a junior or freshy 3rd speaker often refers to B-1,

because the bombing method is the same as B-1,

JUST BOMB(Immature rebut)

As long as there's problem with the opponents ideas,

JUST RAISE IT,

Don't care about it is conflictable or non-...

But, everything in debates require experiences,

endless practices and falling down...

Will then grown up into a F-22,

whereby more economic with the fires it has,

whereby more specific, precise and accurate targets are taken down...

Fret not, I'm trying hard on it,

Doing whatever I can in order not to let my team down,

And became an efficient teammate,

Also another great weapon as others do in the team...

I know its not far from another match to come in,

BUT I'm trying,

Wish me good luck and greater power to power my engine///

Left Just 1 More Assignment!!!

2010-10-15T14:02:00.000+08:00

After 2 weeks of struggling and endless cups of coffees sacrificed,

A total of 5 assignments had been settled!!!

And now, season finale, The Last Assignment!!!!

Sadly, I am busy with Integration and Unity Debate Competition,

And this competition will be held on tomorrow which will last for 5 consecutive days, at Perlis(UniMap)

OH-MY-SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In this particular week-final week, every lecturers is summing up the lessons and tipsy splashing activity!!!!

I want that!!!

BUT, never mind, its fine and I'm ok with these...

Its a experience-ful tour, why not?

What I know is, when I came back, I will be in great business!!!!

When both God of Different Religion Contacts

2010-10-01T14:59:00.000+08:00

May be when you see this Title in a sensitive way,

BUT I don't care, because this is not at all, especially people living in Malaysia,

of different skin colors and religious under one roof...

Its just a minute part of my life, happened this Wednesday morning...

My dear, very very considerate Roommate of my, loves to lock the door,

in any matter of circumstances...

The quote is, Without Fail!!!

And a friend of mine, namely Fai-rex...

His group needs to do their presentation on that morning,

They didn't print out the handouts,

Of course its morning 7.45am, which printing center opens for you??

Ok, you expected, my printer,

and unfortunately in my room...

A series of "unfortunate coincidence" passed-by,

The last housemate of my went out of the house and Fai-rex manage to bump into him...

Up next, this housemate says that, when Secret is sound asleep you won't wake him up...nor any phone calls could reach him...

BUT dear Fai-rex, just went in the house and gave his hand on my door knob which is should be always locked...

Wake up!x3 I need your printer, you gotta help me, if not I'm dead meat!!!

I woke up, with complicated spontaneous idea runs and bangs in my head

{Dazzled+Amazed+Shocked+Sleepy= What n How on Earth he came into my room??}

+++I can't believed what's happening in front of my eyes, another person appears in my first sight of the morning!!!+++

Another moment, my mind, conscious keeps telling me that,

"Just help him, print it"

My body responded to what my mind wanted...

Sometimes, amazing things do not comes by as you wanted or expected...

Destiny and Affinity awaits,

God will tell you what to do next, "Print for him"

More dazzlement is, 2 non-homogous religion meets...

Perhaps could anyone tells me, what will happen next if the door did not opened?

Don't get offended, as the TARGET may not YOU

2010-09-17T22:18:00.000+08:00

The Action had just started,
I believe U won't realize it by now,
BUT the effect will takes place later on,
Hope you don't mind as
This is the Best for Us...
Till you, had yourselves all set,
OTHERWISE
《Take aside your PATHETIC FACE》

该行动刚刚开始，我相信你们将不会现在，
但效果会在之后才发觉，
希望你不介意
因为这是对我们最好的......
直到你，有自己的一套，
否则
“把你龌龊的脸闪一边”！！！！！！！

Rain is my past, Sunshine is my future

2010-09-06T12:44:00.000+08:00

Never do everyone imagined nor defined rain to them,

some say it represents God's Tears of Sympathy,

some say its their Girlfriends sadness,

some say its just water...

But to me, it meant my Past, Pathetic Journey of Metamorphosis...

What the hell I'm talking again about my past?

Because as when we are alone, not busy as usual, not hectic as it is,

people will re-cab their memory of which it is Significant...

Significant that will change us into anything,

anything of what you had decided, THE DECISION

Determines what you are now...

BUT sadly, you ever to tell me that you are suffering or in pain,

please be reminded, who's having the worst?

On the other hand, if you cut of the comparable parts of your words,

PERHAPS I will lend you my ear...

No matter how and what you are now,

You won't forget the past of yours,

Which will never be erased, will never be washed off by rain itself,

till the last breath, Past follows...

What I could tell is, whenever holiday reaches, I would be BITTER and LONELY

that's all I can say...

I have you as my friend, my buddy, my Sworn-bro and even my God-bro,

BUT you would still have to mix with your same age, your PEERS,

I would only can leave you, and will only appoint you when you're free,

though I was and is alone before you feel free...

That's never mind, you reap what you sow, thats REALITY

What you see now, what you perceive about me,

Had been not I am before,

Can be total different, can be not...

One thing for sure is, difference exist...

Metamorph,

Like phoenix rise from ashes...

And,

each rains arrives, how I wish I could get myself WET

trying to wash away bit by bit my SINS and SORROW

And,

each sunrises, how I wish I could have my friends, close friends of course,

TOGETHER feel the gentle warmth of the sun,

TOGETHER watch the seconds of the sun rises shyly from the mountains over the sea...

TOGETHER WE SHARE,

TOGETHER WE STRIVE,

AND THE LONG RUN OF FRIENDSHIP AND BROTHERHOOD for ETERNITY...

May God be my and our witness,

please bless me to witness that with YOU...

家，的味道

2010-09-05T22:33:00.001+08:00

昨天到家了，下巴士时看见了妈...

她，没有老到半点都没有，依然健康，依旧的笑容

抱了妈一下，游子必做之事

后，吃了顿小餐点，毕竟都坐了个六小时车程，饿+累透了~~~

可是，从一下巴士的瞬间，鼻子就开始做出它以往很专署的反应...空气敏感

因为，怎说都好，在我位于的宿舍和校园空气较清新，尤其是宿舍...

至现在，也都在做做以前在这里必做的事，鼻子好痒！！！！！！！

吃了几道菜，怎说今天才第二天到家...

去龙镇Hoe Soon爽爽胃，第二天（今晚）妈咪的火锅...

怀念，怀念，都还是怀念...妈妈的手做出来的菜，一定是完美的味道！！！！

今天踏了一轮的脚车，周围有了些变化（细微）

邻居阿叔为他家粉刷了新颜色，某条街道铺了黑油路...

龙华山的野猴，多了

想去找好啪迪可是，怕没话题，怕陌生了一些些...

怎看得出呢？

简单，连信息还没回...再过几天吧~~

同学朋友都，陆陆续续回来了，期待约大伙儿们出来喝喝茶...

很想听听大家的进度和成长，

也很多问题想问，很多话想说呢！！！

在面子书里，结识了几位朋友，年纪嘛？

就不透露，也相信大家都猜得到我的交友特性，无年龄界限

也，人是两位有趣的人

一位，A先生，因为某种是困扰，为钱而打转，

随口，ke-poh comment结果开始了友情的旅途~~

一位，B先生，认识了许久，

起初与安慰和教导些小小人生哲学，只用msg来聊天

现在起步到用Chat和MSN

也现在，成结拜兄弟，还真难想象，很意外，很惊喜的人...

两者的同点是，某些成熟度上，超越了自己的年龄

也稀少小过我的朋友，能够接招和奈何和消化的了我的语文路线...

但，缘分都开路了，不去向前接下，是愚人之作~~

因为，缘分不会这么简单送礼物给你的，切忌！！

而今天接下了，必定他日有的考验和抉择的！！！

而，在家，还真，有点空档，虽然想念家,.,.,

但过去的痕迹，现在还是会凸现出来，

人家，和朋友预约，排得满满的，

而我，就乖乖在家等被人安排~~~

家，的味道

2010-09-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

昨天到家了，下巴士时看见了妈...

她，没有老到半点都没有，依然健康，依旧的笑容

抱了妈一下，游子必做之事

后，吃了顿小餐点，毕竟都坐了个六小时车程，饿+累透了~~~

可是，从一下巴士的瞬间，鼻子就开始做出它以往很专署的反应...空气敏感

因为，怎说都好，在我位于的宿舍和校园空气较清新，尤其是宿舍...

至现在，也都在做做以前在这里必做的事，鼻子好痒！！！！！！！

吃了几道菜，怎说今天才第二天到家...

去龙镇Hoe Soon爽爽胃，第二天（今晚）妈咪的火锅...

怀念，怀念，都还是怀念...妈妈的手做出来的菜，一定是完美的味道！！！！

今天踏了一轮的脚车，周围有了些变化（细微）

邻居阿叔为他家粉刷了新颜色，某条街道铺了黑油路...

龙华山的野猴，多了

想去找好啪迪可是，怕没话题，怕陌生了一些些...

怎看得出呢？

简单，连信息还没回...再过几天吧~~

同学朋友都，陆陆续续回来了，期待约大伙儿们出来喝喝茶...

很想听听大家的进度和成长，

也很多问题想问，很多话想说呢！！！

在面子书里，结识了几位朋友，年纪嘛？

就不透露，也相信大家都猜得到我的交友特性，无年龄界限

也，人是两位有趣的人

一位，A先生，因为某种是困扰，为钱而打转，

随口，ke-poh comment结果开始了友情的旅途~~

一位，B先生，认识了许久，

起初与安慰和教导些小小人生哲学，只用msg来聊天

现在起步到用Chat和MSN

也现在，成结拜兄弟，还真难想象，很意外，很惊喜的人...

两者的同点是，某些成熟度上，超越了自己的年龄

也稀少小过我的朋友，能够接招和奈何和消化的了我的语文路线...

但，缘分都开路了，不去向前接下，是愚人之作~~

因为，缘分不会这么简单送礼物给你的，切忌！！

而今天接下了，必定他日有的考验和抉择的！！！

而，在家，还真，有点空档，虽然想念家,.,.,

但过去的痕迹，现在还是会凸现出来，

人家，和朋友预约，排得满满的，

而我，就乖乖在家等被人安排~~~

I'm Not just Friends, I'm Your CONFIDANTE

2010-08-13T12:43:00.000+08:00

These 2 terms looks as if there's no difference,

BUT sadly, if you did think of that, it means

YOU Define WRONGLY your friends surrounding you,

and maybe you had missed the chance,

that leads you towards True-Friendship...

A -ship that never did it sinks nor shipwrecks,

Where each -ships created were Uniquely Yours...

and to be exact, Both of Yours...

To determine where the -ship heading to,

needs both of you to coordinate properly,

hit a Humongous Iceberg? or landed on to Friendship Forever Land?

Both of you decide, not only you!

You will never know when will be "At World's End-Pirates of The Caribbean",

You will never stops sailing neither do he/she...

AND to me, the one so particular with this sort of -ship,

Only if YOU're my key, and I'll be YOUR significant

Because,

I'm not just any other FriendS

I'm Your CONFIDANTE

今日我以你为荣，明日你以我为耀！

2010-08-13T01:40:00.000+08:00

昨日的足迹，是今天的历史，

明天的成绩，是今天的努力...

我并非一朝一夕成为你们眼中的光，

我的今日来自于你不离不弃的期盼，

我的明天有必你的参与和你的笑容，

有你就有我，

因你而向前...

你们看见的我，有点他的身影

你们看见的我，没他我不完全

因为从认识了他，

我认识了无限未来...

可我不停止让自己前进，

可我不曾歇息和暂停，

至从我你分开，

你看着我迈进，我看着你成长，

你我努力朝着自己的目标奋斗...

认识你，是我的光荣

认识你，我不曾寂寞

认识你，笑容灿烂多

愿有一天，轮到你来带着我的足迹

让我也骄傲以下，爽一下...

多谢你，很高兴认识你！！！

明今

日日

你我

以以

我你

为为

耀荣

I am Reality

2010-08-11T20:17:00.000+08:00

A name I put up as my Bluetooth nickname a week ago,

and a very coincidence that Reality pops-out in my Sahsiah-Class...

In which I had stated in previous blog on Freuds...

And an Ego person actually stands for Reality, in which they tend to measure and weighing cases with complementary to importance of Reality, for the purpose of tomorrow...

Thus, Ego person tends to think way too far away,

each plans,

each ways they thought of,

are maybe few months ahead or even a year in range...

Yes, it is definitely a good thing to have someone which is Ego,

BUT!!

You have to be prepared for some situations which may need you,

to stop his/her thinking{processing} and cool him down...

Hence or otherwise, an Ego person may gone berserk and Depressed...

See, it is just a slim line for a person to gone GILA or NORMAL...

Its up to us to work together, Lend Him a Hand...

Think again, there are so much possibilities and probabilities in future, in reality...

How would Ego hits the Bulls-Eye??

A-HAH!!! This depends on how much an Ego learnt and experienced and its Intuition are to be comprehended...

As due to their extraordinary,

makes them truly unique and outshines others...

"So proud to be an Ego...wawa"

Because it stands for

I am Reality...

命中注定，为人师

2010-08-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

任职为补习老师时，只是想要给自己一个答案，一个肯定,,,

那就是,

"我能胜任为老师一职吗？"

当我任职期间就有了这么一个小故事，

某个不寻常的夜班补习，补国文...

班上学生讲起你我都耳熟的冷笑话...

“老师，水饺是公的还是母的？”

{不知道}

“是公的，因为它有包皮！”

傅同学就问...

[老师什么是包皮？]

用屁股想也知道，一位新鲜老师怎样回答得出？

根本就不会怎解危！！！

我就犯下了个大错，足以令我决定我是否胜任为老师的一个启发点~~

“傅同学，你回去问你爸爸会较恰当，这等问题不在我范围之下...”

{富含尴尬的笑容}

傅同学就哭了起来，还说

“我没有爸爸！！！”

当时，我还真以为他是开玩笑，因为他本是很开朗又很幽默的学生...

难免老师们会误以为他在作弄我们...

他哭了五分钟，眼泪是流了几滴...

事后当晚就问了我的主任，她就说了个令我大吃一惊的事实...

+傅同学来自破碎家庭，单亲，现在是跟他妈妈住...+

"我该怎办？"

+就不要再提起，让它淡掉+

脑海里浮现着，这么一个跟我那么尝聊得学生已经是很稀有了...

这么一位美好的学生怎会是从这么担忧的家境呢？

在家教哲学与心理学中，爸妈各在孩子成长扮演重要的角色

而，此家境，就是足以令一名孩子的人格出问题...

而且，禁忌就是，不能在他们面前提起父母亲之事，比伤口伤涂盐还要疼...

回到原点，我该怎办？

怎说都好，都是我这老师太不懂事啊！！

〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉〉

那个星期的星期六，也就是我们新老师没课的一天，可是！！

就是要上班准备教材，也还是会有些班位于这天的~~

那么傅同学，这天也是有上课，可见今时今日的孩子们多么可怜，

拜六也要上课...

在他上课前的两小时就在这了，因为van一次载来的嘛...

"傅同学，来，陪老师下象棋..."

{哦！}

连下三局后，

“对不起...老师那天真的不知道你和你爸妈的事...老师抱歉”

{没什么啦，老师不知道啊。我没事，老师你放心，我习惯了}

脸部表情是开朗，可是双眼渐渐又要关上了...

“你有这样的态度是对的，如果你给我装可怜，求同情。我可把你敲扁！！

我知道这里没有其他男老师可寻，但那是之前。现在有我，你以后有

任何懊恼或恋情想讲可以找我。但记住，没有爸爸不代表活不了，

一样可以活出精彩！相信自己也相信老师！”

{嗯！}

之后到我停职前，这名同学活的更开朗更勤谨...

也叮铃的东西，都听进去...也做得到...

甚至，停职的那天也是个拜六，也很巧的能和他到个别,

"老师走了，拜拜"

因为不想伤他的心嘛，不能讲直接点，因为要一名小学五年级生信任与你，

不简单的！！！孩子的信任比大人更值千金！！！

我啊，不是新鲜到太嫩的老师，特地留了他的联络号码...

联络到他，至今也是，而也纳下了些小约定...

重点是今天的课，既然讲起了“分析学生的技巧”内容，

和我所用的是一样的，就连定观点和论点都准到比马票还准...

也话剧话说，我经历的过去和潜意识造就了符合这些心理学家的理论..

也后天的祝福和努力，磨练，更深层的发挥此功能，

也让我更坚定回答自己和别人，

命中注定，为人师...

假以时日，我定做得到！！！

同学们，等我！！！

The Chains I Broke

2010-08-10T16:17:00.000+08:00

"Why must you be complicated?"

"Your camouflages, would it be too strong and impenetrable?

Won't you just drop down it, relax~~"

Even my best pal, could only manage step-up to 75% of deepness...

AND thats having speciality, he is different and he fits "LocknKey Hypothesis",

a Gift from AFFINITY, a Plan of DESTINY...

BUT I did not just stop there nor did not grow anymore,

the evidence is, YOU're READING THIS BLOG~~

He wanted me to be happy in new place,

He wanted my true-cheerful to everyone there,

He wanted me to shed my camouflage,

He wanted me to be ME...

Did you BUMPED into this kind of friend?

Did you ever felt being cared and cherished by your friend?

Did you cried for your friends when you came here?

Did you still connected to him/her after you arrived here?

Did you still remembered his/her smile?his/her laughter?

Don't flood your laptop, I know its kind of Emos~~

BUT this is SecretSage Steel's blog,

of all emotions are to be shown, reveals YOU

I became like this because of Significant Past I had,

and will always lies as Past...

"Let Bygone be Bygone"

and I learn-up

"Like phoenix rise again from ashes"

What you see now, had already me, I break the chain,

What you see me now, are actually totally different than I was...

If I could unchain myself, why not you?

If I could grab the chance to know my best pal and his support, why can't you?

If I am who I am, what about you?

Past's Secret,

Today's Sage,

Tomorrow's Steel...

The chain had broken, unleash your nature...

I'm a Ego in the Eye of Sigmund Freud

2010-08-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

What-the-Heaven is this??

What is this Sigmund Freud?

...Surf the internet yourself on who's that will be...

Well, actually its yesterday class(9-8-2010)in P. Sahsiah...

Its like this, humans are categorized into 3 types,

Id, Ego and SuperEgo...

Id stands for pleasure-centered people, this persona mind only works for what he/she likes or happy with...

SuperEgo stands for Moral-Heavy-Weightage people,

an extreme people which do everything with Moral/Bible Centered...

Hehe...These 2 people having standardize and significant-visible point...

AND what about Ego??

Ego stands in the middle of these 2 kinds of people, could be said as mixture of both of them...

Ego person in the point of view of Freud was,

Ego person's mind works by weighting "realistically" but influenced by Superegos and Ids...

Due to the Egos think tooo far ahead and complicated-weighting,

they need someone to stop his thoughts from getting over-the-hedge...

Thus, influential by means of choosing ideas by Egos...

However, when Egos working with their thoughts and ideas, they tend to be anxiety and anxious of whats going to happen next when they do this/that...

ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDD....Stops here k?

Because the other part continue by next coming class,

and maybe you could see its the same as my pattern of blogs~~

and thats what Steel always be...

Once again, another page of Philosophy added...

Next Sunrise, Everything Arise

2010-08-07T23:39:00.000+08:00

Continuous of the Last Post Namely SecretXXX...

What had really happened?

I could only say, The One lightens Steel's life...

In a sense that,

never that Steel be that happy,

be that optimistic,

be that contented to what he had...

What did The One do?

He didn't do anything, he just showed something exception and true to Steel...

That Steel couldn't even manage it at the first moment,

BUT as time pass, they both made a team...

Which is The One can be said as i3,

and

Steel is Window 7...

Steel was too complicated, much advanced functions...

Just like Window 7...

AND

The One be i3,

shouldn't be lower than i3 processor otherwise it would be great burden

to The One...

shouldn't be higher than i3 rocessor otherwise it would be too much for

Steel to take it...

That's how Mutual Relationship is,

Not too burden, not too much gaps...

Everything works just like clockwork~~~

And thus you can imagine,

how life's had changed ever since for Steel,

And thus this blog had changed its style,

bit by bit the rhythm and melody re-enact,

AND please stay tuned,

witness changes made in this period...

Next Sunrise, Everything Arise.

把你手给我

2010-08-07T18:36:00.000+08:00

我知道，现阶段你根本就是听不进任何一种话语...

但，就留一个位置，让我激进去...

我把话说完，自然就抽离自己...

都告诉你了，

别把一切的计划和梦想寄托在她身上，

别把你想得东西当做一定是她会想的，

别把心态放错也为她改太多也做太多，

别跌到了的时候拒绝这是事实的残酷。。。

当一失足，

铁定崩溃，铁定纳闷，

要生要死，死去活来，

装很可怜，求她回来，

摆在眼前的是，她已离去，而你在一旁耍脾气。

而这时眼前，来了双手，

却装成熟，装没事似，

拒绝被服，拒绝一把，

问题是，人生有几回？几回里遇得到这双手？
问题是，面子重要还是友人难的可贵？

问题是，友人不心疼吗？看你打滚，自掌嘴，心里很舒服吗？

无论答应过什么，在友人心中，

你食言了他还是会站在你身后，陪着你！！！

因为在友人心中，你安然无恙最重要！！！

过去的东西，是不能从来，

为由珍惜眼前的东西，继续展开人生的下一个起跑点！！！

因为明天会更好！！！

因为你值得明天！！！

因为明天等着你！！！

What is Secret Sage Steel?

2010-08-07T00:05:00.000+08:00

Let me explain this Once and For all,

As popular demand...till I could memorise my words...

Its a name,

if you want to address it, you be sound as

Secret Sage, name Steel...

And whats this Secret Sage? A post?

Yup! A sage out from secret, from dark, from deepest of one's mind...

Which means a persona undergone sort of Baptize OR Metamorphosis...

In which, the Holy-water OR nutrients, are

"Deepest Darkness of Human Philosophy"

"Filthy Part Lies Behind One's Face"

Steel, it means

"Pain I endure"

"The Pain I lived with, without Suicidal in my dictionary"

"The drenching pain which inflicted on me, never do I say DIE!!! "

When this 3 words, comes together it became

Philosophy of Steel...

In which everyone denies it, as it does reflects how filthy and pathetic a person are....

Denial of the statement in this Philosophy, is denial to yourself...

BUT no matter how Steel it is his name, he is a human after all,

he has heart, a warm heart, still pounding, awaiting for someone to get him out of this, forsaken path...

AND after a long awaiting, The One came into his life...

Steel has to learn something call

"Sincere makes Exception"

and only these exception ones will Over frown the Philosophy...

AND The One did...

The story still continues, because Steel had never be this enthusiastic before after The One crash in...

3 simple words doesn't seem simple and just that...

It takes more than what You could imagine, and

That's life,

Welcome to my Blog

Cheerful People Has Its Gloomy

2010-08-05T21:47:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry everybody...

To those who saw what happened to me, I could only say,

"It occurs periodic and will soon be after, just leave me some space for me to squeeze into your conversation, I may not answer the topic BUT just keep me attended..."

Normally it won't last more than 6 hours, BUT if its more than that, it means more than 1 complicated thing spinning in my head...

AND you will be sure to ask, what kind of complicity?

1.) Friends-Best friends in bumps

2.) Bio-clock for Cheering person to being Cheer

The first one, I do not need to explain, you will also know what is it

AND if you really think that what a lame thing to spin, then proceed my OLDER POST first...

The second one, well I put up as question,

"I'm a cheerful person,

I'm as though Energizer that always 'seems' like NEVER SAY DIE...

Making surrounding people livelier and un-sleep-able...

AND make myself happier, eyes full of spirits...

I could make anyone nears me CHEER-UP

BUT do anyone, Cheers-Me?"

Its not easy to Cheer a Gloomy-Cheerful People,

as they were the one knows what it takes to Cheer,

Thus, you'll need a higher skill to tackle,

Otherwise, failure as Closing...

I'm sorry, if you couldn't, the best is,

Take me in, include me in, in whatever moments or conversations,

or in short, DON'T KEPT ME ALONE and SILENT in ONE CORNER...

I'm sorry...

Nuclear in UPSI Vice Chancellor Malay Debate Cup 2010

2010-08-05T00:33:00.000+08:00

What will happen for a Chinese from nowhere, POP-Out in Malay Debate Arena?

AND

What will this particular Chinese did?

The answer is,

KA-BA-BOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!

This guy, was and is the Highlight of the Year~~

No I said it, the evidence is in Facebook, take sometime and explore what did really happen~~

Although this guy, KERETA and BAS, could jumble up~~

Although this guy, Malay affixes, added as he wanted~~

Can't be denied that, he do recognize as Rare-Debator...

How many person like me would step into this arena?

Whereby when prayers time, you could be sitting alone in Quarantine Hall...

How many of it will go and CHALLENGE 3rd Speaker??

Whereby we don't really know Malay-Linguistic(Wacana), surely you will be expecting "BLOODY-Hell Usage"...

BUT, I'm still young in this arena, could be forgiven and its not my mother-tongue language...I will try eliminate it...polish it...

AND will return to this arena with a new ME-something skilled and as fully weaponised as possible,

and believe me, wait for me!!!

I will blast YOU the 2nd time!!! Be well-prepared, YOU won't have another chance when bumped into me the 2nd sight!!!

A New Starting

2010-08-05T00:32:00.002+08:00

Its just One month ever since I was here in UPSI(Sultan Idris Education University)...

Never did I expect it would be such a great BANG to the people surrounding me,

nor did I wanted to pursue for any popularity and fame,

BUT people here, do acknowledge what I did and my personality.

So many things happened since Orientation Week till now,

many friends to make,

friendships to be built,

Will only be now, I'm free to once again FLOOD my blog...

Expectations made before stepped here, sort of being OVER FROWNING...

Here was and is way TOOOOOOO HUGE!!!

BUT I got it controlled down, and LIVING with it...

Though its a bit tiring, which I had to admit it-spirit driving out, whatever comes out in the end do pays off...

AND I'm Lovin It!!!

他不普通

2010-06-28T10:28:00.000+08:00

从一开始认识他，都以不同的形式交友，也很莫名其妙的发展明天。
也不曾想过，他，影响了我不少也当然回敬了这点给他~

原本普通啪迪的形式都是头三年一起神经质的玩耍，后三年才成熟聊更不一样的...
但我们不是，
一开始就直接倒转这形式，这么做因为他有那非一般的特质...
一但走完这路线，就要转会玩耍《创造共同记忆》不然这份情会很沉，很压力，臭老...

可是，没跟他说的话，他就会不适应，不明白，难配合和反感...
犹如老人家跟儿童玩 “跳飞机” 一样...
简单来说就是反应不来...

可是，他也不曾想过，何时还会有办法在玩？
大了，玩的东西就再也不一样，没的回头忏悔...
就因为我没有过，所以才疏忽些小细节而吵架
因为没时间了...

如今，迈进下个阶段的形式越来越逼近...
更让我不知所戳，也因为他也在处于中学生必渴望的小插曲，
更难熬...

但无论如何都想要告诉他，
“我不会放弃，也不会离开你周围，也不会坐以待毙
因为你值得我这么做，因为你是
我好兄弟！！！”

愿各过客，祝福也支持...

It Ends Tonight

2010-06-28T10:10:00.000+08:00

""When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight will make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.""

When this song plays in my mind, everyone which know me will certainly know what I'm in now...
And neither do I can control it, as last 4 day encounting, before everything turns HISTORY...

My family, especially my mom, were pretty exhausted upon preparing things before enrolment...
Myself, never had any appointment which last full-day, one and another keep rolling and had last for a week...
Friends, best pals and I had made something and tried activities which never done it for the past few years I know him ever since...

Thanks , everyone which keep be my side and turned me into not just someone...
Because of you, my circle grows greater and larger, unlimitless...

Best pal, if you see this, I dedicate the highest gratitude for you and our friendship...Thank you

I'm a unemployed????

2010-01-31T14:49:00.000+08:00

Yup, I stopped to be tutor in the company that served...AND to be exact should be 42 days service...

It was indeed a good company, with systems which up to an extend>REMARKABLE
BUT sadly not its Private Limited...and not the tutor here...too machines...

How private it was??
How machine??

"To me, an educator will never put money and student at the first place...there's only student growth and performance...the emotions and 'ships that put in...the passion that money can't measure and can't even lenghts our knowledge of our option...
How sacred this job is???
I can't imagine yet as I am only 20 years old young man..."

Thats why I chose to leave this company, as I know if I stay another minute longer>>>I be another money-machine...Which work just for money..
And when I saw and see the children sent to me I feel more heartache and guilty-sense...
Because teachers are also another template in their life next to their parents...

Why??
Because they see and copy into their N0n-Deletable-HardDisk...
They will only think that
"Education must have money to BUY"
Because at here, fees are much stress than others tuition centre in my town...

Not that I think too much, its because you haven't bear child yet...
You would seek the teacher which is Passionate in Education and
NOT
Money for Education

Think more doesn't mean OUTRAGEOUS
it sometimes also meant
"I care, I love, I protect and I happy"

Newbie Tutor

2010-01-20T12:00:00.000+08:00

How long will be my holiday after STPM??
Will it ends right after my ReSULT-Revealing-March???
or its my end by that day comes??

God will answer for me'''''

Well~~all of the nonsense thing welcomes me by another 2 month AND its arrives very soon...

N what about the "Newbie Tutor"??
Mouthful of non-sense word like me need a job which will allows me to spit out eveything...
N
I found the arena that just fit me{PLUM LIKE ME}
its a TUITION CENTER

"the name please?"
"ow, I'm sorry its copyrighted and you will only know it when you are in the neighbourhood...."

BUT in actual I'm not counted that NEWBIE because I had exposed to this kind of industry eversince after-SPM holiday...

WHATs different was, my own class...my own student...named as Teacher...

The passion and mysterical thing that I thought of EDUCATION line proves that
~~IT MATCH~~

Well I don't know how long I will stay here, what I know WAS and IS that

"I am sincere, with my full strenght and true"

Touched??
will see how long I can stay here,,,
wish my good luck>>>

Cameron Hg "Sueh Betul"

2009-06-11T15:09:00.000+08:00

Upon on the way returning home from Cameron...Freezing cold place...
I lost my wallet in yhr GOD-DAMN-BUS...
Not dropped BUT STOLLEN...
with my handsome-looking I/C and of coze RM100//
I'm doomed with it...
Curse the thief...

Never mind...its another lesson...
Never let your precious wallet leave your body and eyesight...

Someone alike Ah Kitt

2009-06-04T10:52:00.000+08:00

Speaking of Ah Kitt again...I met Ah Gan...
He's 17...such a young age BUT he had 70% characters of Ah Kitt,,,

Makes me think of AK again when dealing with him..and not BOXING...instead just simply sms'ing...

Speaking of AG...you can say he's quite rude and carefree...BECAUSE of these 2 significant personality, makes him uniquely himself...etched deeply in my mind...

>>and I can tell you, I don't know what I am posting about,,,just Sout-Out-Loud<<

Trying to Change

2009-06-04T10:39:00.000+08:00

Hmm...I'm going to change the usual style of my blog...
Other than 'cheong hei'...plus reduced psychological and philosophy terms...meaning less complicated sentence...being and trying to be more direct in meaning...

Of course leading to writing diary style...though I may not that often to do that...

Time to Change
Watch n Learn>>>

He-Who-Shall-Be-Gratitude

2009-06-02T20:49:00.000+08:00

Just two days ago...1 am...he didnt sleep yet...n i phone up because I havent sleep yet...

Know what he's doing???
Revising for his Final in MMU first year...

He's not someone to me...
Without him...I'm nothing, meaningless life,with no friends, no ice-breaking skill at all...
And no Secret Sage Steel...

About 5 years ago, in tuition...That was the time I am a loner...Loser as well...
No one sat beside me..and he st beside me at the first day he came to the tuition...

Namely Ah Kitt...from SMKXXX...my life turning point started off...He let me witness what is making friend with strangers...I mean total stranger...

A lot of fxxx of problem with him the first 2 months...things getting better and better after that...I took the inisiative to befriend with him...
AND the same skill apply to other stranger...and made me a new person...

Metamorphosis...

No need to elaborate on that any further because you can guess what happened and changes in my life after met Ah Kitt...

Thank you...This post dedicated to you in my global visiting blog...
Ah Kitt you GOD DAMN YOU..Thank you...

Of 19th July...

2009-06-02T20:38:00.000+08:00

Lower 6 opened...more than 2 weeks already...Nver did I imagine I still can make new friends...

There were many of them BUT there was 1 special one...
Well I name him Christopher-Howard Cho (we're in internet dude, lets just informail naming)....

Our friendship germinates quite fast...AND very meaningful....
There is one thong in common, a rare one...

We're a Cancerian of 19th July....
Hope he sees this...

Cho, you made a good friend....keep this on and I do hope we stay connected...

Long time No Post

2009-02-25T09:19:00.000+08:00

Fot a long wait...waiting for my new post...

Sad to say, I was very busy previously...Tuition, sports day, marching, eating and sleeping...In addition, I have no Internet...Go to CC need money larr, my dear...

Topping up mobile credit, strolling in the mall...and now CRAZE and CRAVE for Bowling...Money money money money~
Flows like river...

Busy with study, though I don't really know what the teacher talking about...LULLABY...
Very in need someone to pity on me...

Miss my friends, those already entered colleage and university...ANDDD Sparkers in Spark! DiGi batch August 2008...

Well got to go now...those who miss me...text me k!

Kakiis Nite Out

2008-12-12T14:36:00.000+08:00

What an unlucky day...For a long wait for the Kakiis Moment Result out...I got it, I mean I been chosed to be invited to Kakkiis Nite out..

The confirmation letter was sent by 9th December...I opened it jiust today,12th of December...RSVP was over and can't make it
Pretty sad...But still feel not that bad because I'm broke now...If I were to sent the confirmation letter is just a waste and waste one sit for other capable Kakiis...haiz...
Never mind things will always have the second time and I believe I will make it the next time this contest takes place...
N hey Cyrus, wait me there...

I Met A New Friend

2008-11-14T15:01:00.000+08:00

Well well well...its about to reach the end for this 2008 semester week...SPM holding...My classmates friend came back (namely Chin) visit them but actually he is taking SPM(retake)...

He had a good result in BM and BI but he wanted to retake to make a better result..So, yup u guess the next...
Sincerely, I met him before in tuition when I was F5...as well as in F4...The thing is I don't know what things to open conversation...things retain as that till ended SPM...I dont have the chance to know him...
~~Well though I'm Number 1 in Ice-Breaking Skill but there's technique behind...The most crucial and essential..."Idea about him, his friend circle, related people..." at that time I don't have~~
Now, at that moment I do.....
Because of his friend...old classmate, shifted to my school(a bunch of girls of my class)...Hehehe...U know what next...First word came out and bounded him...Thus new friend...POFF, new friend born...
Though his friend kept asking why I so concerned about him..."R u A gay o something...u get to know him too fast...very weird"
I could only answer "thats Affinity" and occurs with a feeling in ur mind that you can't help to open your mouth and communicate...
I'm...though a Sage of Teenager but sometimes...Things are not controlled by me...I could only follow and let it happen...Because what was destineed no one could stop it nor change coze its too OVERWHELMING...

Yo Sparkers!

2008-09-30T16:27:00.000+08:00

i feel kind a to create a new page on this blog BUT...I have no idea on what the title of the blog will be...So if YOU leaped into my blog and sees this please give me your suggestion! Thank u!

Spark! One Month Anniversary!!!

2008-09-24T10:20:00.000+08:00

It has been 1 month since Spark! ended. 58 Sparkers left with both sad and joyful heart. The 5 days 4 nights workshop had indeed taught us a lot of unexpected, unheard and unforgettable things and experiences that would be useful in our life.
Every Sparkers had grown up. Grown up to be more mature and outshine among their peers.
Here in Spark! Each and one of us were unique in a sense that how we behaved. We UNLEASHED our true self and unique personality in us. Thus, the Mentors named us the ‘Crazy People’ especially the Sparkers in Bus B.
Speaking about Bus B, there was one ‘Lost Member from Bus A ’. He intruded Bus B and got stuck in Bus B ever since then. In Bus B there were two ‘Best Speaker’ namely Moana -from Ampang and Cedric-from Johor. The Best Speaker meant for their UNSTOPPABLE Mouth-very extremely TALKATIVE. Moana creates endless of topics to be discuss, whereas Cedric, his words were very strong and FLAMMABLE that ignited every Sparkers’ courage and emotions though there were times he needed to be Shut Up.
Sparkers exchanged and shared their culture and tradition of their towns and cities. Amazing and Exploring.
Most Important thing was the relationship-Friendship. A priceless and ever-green Friendship. In just 5 days, the ties formed held everyone tightly. Spark! may have ended but the Ship remained true and strong It did not just ended there, its just the beginning of it and continued to grow.
I believed that every Sparkers were still or are still contacting each other. Although some may need a media(handphones and internet) to contact, the ‘feel’ and ‘emotions’ still can be felt.
I’m looking forward to meet face to face everyone once again. Maybe participate Spark! again, if I were given the chance.

Happy One Month Anniversary!
To all Sparkers and Spark!

It was hard to say goodbye

Tears rolled...Sad creepling

Its just the beginning of the friendship

There and then...Now and always...

Miss you always...

Spark! Aftermath

2008-09-02T12:41:00.000+08:00

(From Secret Sage Steel)

…A successful program like this-Spark! for instance, creates tears of Joy as well as Sadness…
Only a program like this, everyone who participated, remembered always…
Thank you, thank you Spark! Thank you DiGi for everything…for giving me this great opportunity to attend Spark! I love it…

Thank you,
Mia
Guna
Chris Ng
Asyraf Lee
Gurinder
Vivian
Safura
Emily
Nurha
Frank
Arief
Khai

All abang(s) and kakak(s) that involved directly
and indirectly(the backstage heroes)

Thanks to you, specially dedicated to you,
Edwin…
~It’s a great honoured for me…to learn
from you…You taught me a lot of
Meaningful and Helpful to me….
~Looking forward to meet you again…
Keep in touch…

Nevertheless here, I would like to NAME “You” out…
A thankful person should Bravely, Officially and Grandly stand out to thank the one who he wants to thank…

It’s you Cyrus…
You showed me that I still have friends beside me…
What matters most is, I want the friend or not…
You’re nice, mysterious, MISCHEVIOUS and friendly…
++Nice to meet you++

It’s you John…
You wake me up, pulled me out of the long sleep, endless Dreamland…
That filled with great loneliness…
Junior’s word sometimes are immature, sometimes too Direct and sometimes they do makes sense, as seniors, they ought to listen to junior’s word attentively before judging them. Senior do make mistakes and immature too…
++I remember you, your word always++

It’s you Khai, Gene and Joshua…
Consoled me at the times I was very very low…
++thank you++

and every participants, the Sparkers!
I enjoyed myself here in Spark!
Thank you, thank you…
Very very much…

Although we’re are far apart, with the ‘ I miss you’…Our heart will continue beating, we beat as one!!!
~See you again, somewhere one day~

Spark! In Tears...

2008-09-02T12:40:00.000+08:00

Fireworks ended…I’m very happy to present the show with other teams together successfully and BEAUTIFULLY…

When I was going back to my sit…To rest on the nice cosy sofa…I saw few girls of my team surrounding Junice…She cried,the girl who claimed she won’t cry,CRIED…FIRST!!!
I offered her a BIG BEAR HUG but…I said…BUT…Just when I was in-touch with her, her emotion some sort of downloaded to me…(Copy and Paste)…
PING-PANGGG!!!

Downpour again, its raining cats and dogs…This time I cried FREELY…You know,
Just let it OUT…

I cried, like…I don’t know how to express THIS in words…Probably, you can imagine a baby cries…The mouth, the cheek and the whole facial muscles…with the cries…

The first victim was Cyrus, I just HUGGED him, tears rolling…Oozes? I don’t know…
He just do nothing, no feel…he just said,
“Ced, oh hush, don’t cry la, Im gonna push you away coze you dirtied my shirt la!!!Disgusting you know?”
>>I failed to make him cry but…eyes turn red and waterish only…Got tears or not?…Cried or not?…He himself knows, lets wait for his COMMENT…

Second victim…Abang Arief…Sad to see he was still happy with ‘Macdonald Smile’ on it, snapping photos!
PUGG!!! Hugged him like koalas do…I was still crying…Message sent to him…First second, his eyes turned red in a very fast rate…the next second…You can expect what will be…

Third was Emily and Edwin…Emily’s blue-eye also turned red…She cried, she was very happy with the successful show…Its ‘tears of joy’!…As for Edwin…he’s eyes just waterish…What’s get even sadder than his father’s death…

Fourth victim, John…Yup! The One I mentioned…Hugged him quite tight…His eyes were red like others, tears only opened a few path onhis cheek…after the HUG, more path…I helped him to clear his ‘tears-duct’ what, I’ve done a GOOD DEED right? HAHA…

…Everyone, almost everyone…the facilitators, mentors and Sparkers…Burst into tears…Flood, I mean flash flood in D’ House…Creating ‘Pool Of Great Sadness’…
This is where, under these circumstances, you see humans-Homo Sapiens…Their true will and incredibility…Cry…Tears…

Spark! ~Fireworks The Spark! Show~

2008-09-02T12:38:00.000+08:00

The show started with a short talk by Edwin…After that he passed the baton to the Production team…The Show Begins!!!
1st : Drama team ; Chairs of Confession
2nd : Photography team ; Slideshow
3rd : Song Writing team ; Sparkling Memories

“I remember date and time
Ten in the morning August 18th Monday
Spark-in that time,
In the doorway with your case
Filled with wonder and excitement
Bearing on our minds
*Thank you DiGi to let us Spark together
We are thankful, we love you
We do, you know we really really do
#Well hey
So much we need to say
Been Fu-Yoh since the day
We’re sparkling everyday
So sad but true
Even though we’re far away
Our memory will stay
Although we will leave today
++Repeat *#
Although we will leave today
Although we will leave today…”

4th : Drama team ; (forgot the title, its about teenage love story)
5th : Song Writing team ; Sparkling Soul
6th : Photography team ; Slide show
Last : Dance team ; (I don’t know the title, Dancers please tell me)

The show ended SUCCESSFULLY…everyone were happy for the first second…Applause…AND NOT for the next second…
=> Please scroll down to Spark! in Tears <=

Spark! 5th Day (part 2)

2008-09-02T12:37:00.000+08:00

Yoga ends…we have about an hour to groom ourselves up…
What do we have here…It’s the Spark! t-shirt!!! Cool…

We had a special breakfast that differs from previous breakfast…
we have…BEEF BEACON…

Check-out the room with Kak Sal…and up to the bus…
Bade goodbye to Shah’s Village Hotel…I enjoy staying here for the past 4 days…Thanks

In the bus…A bit silent today as though “Silent Take Over Yourself” by Moana-another Best Speaker in Spark! like me…

Actually they were nervous, in tense and exerted with Fireworks!
This is goooood! You know…Why?(why is everybody asking ‘why’ all the times?)
The answer is…Distracted from Great Sadness of course…

++we arrived the D’ House++

Spark! 5th Day (part 1)

2008-09-02T12:36:00.000+08:00

Its 5.45am in the morning…I and Cyrus had awaken…we smiled to each other…I know, he faked it…I said a few simple word…Classic and Nostalgic…
“Nice to meet you…”
“I will miss you…”

You know what he says?
“Don’t la Cedric , don’t cry la…I want to ‘charge’ my tears…I too will miss you”

We quickly packed up our luggage…Tidy ourselves up and off we go to swimming pool-today’s exercising venue…

It’s 6.20am…BUT no one in sight!!! Normally at this hour there are Sparkers here…BUT none, where the xxxx everyone gone to?

Yeah again, you got it…they burnt midnight oil…slept-late…You know, Last Talk, Last Laughter and Last Laugh till late at night…Very late most probably…

6.30 something…John reached here…and one by one finally woke-up…
Everyone seems to watch a lot of ‘Kung-Fu Panda’…The Wushi Finger Hold something something like that…SO MANY ‘Po’, I mean dark circles on their eyes…
HAHAHA

Then Yoga, the last exercise…RELAXED…ah~~…next second…OUCH!!!
stretch here and there…It cost my life, you know?
Can you imagine that? I guess not, because you’re not HERE!!!

Here we go again...STRETCHHHH

TWISTTTTT......OH no...

Yeah, you're there....Just PULLL

Yoga ended…I’m freeeeeee…no ouches and aching anymore…HIP HIP HURRAY!!!
…BUT I miss that as it makes me understand that my heart finally no more throbbing…
Thank you, abang Hamzah and Kak Wawa from Illyana Step Up…

Spark! 4th Day (part 6)

2008-09-02T12:34:00.000+08:00

After the Last Dinner…back to the bus…to the hotel…
Tonight, everyone were still very(x2) busy after blogging…
Why?
For preparation for tomorrow Fireworks!
As for me, I bathed and rushed to room 327-Junice’s room…Our group rehearse, rehearse and rehearse…till about 12.00AM…
I go sibuk(busybody)…with other group’s business…
Everyone were very full of activity, every group…
Photographers ~ uploading photos, create slideshows
Dancers ~ rehearse and practice their moves
Song Writers ~ memorizing their lyrics
Drama ~ run through and memorise their dialogue
Production ~ practicing their speech and coordination job
I went back to my room sleep of course!!! My poor dear eyes are exhausted…time for them to rest…They contributed a lot for me, today especially after purging tears…
I had to go back to my room earlier than what I planned is because Cyrus was alone in the room, (I can’t leave him in lurch)…He’s asleep(half-half only), he was waiting for me…and off the light…
zzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ…(more because its last night)

Spark! 4th Day (part 5)

2008-09-02T12:33:00.000+08:00

…Ta-Darr!!! We arrived the Rebung Restaurant owned by Chef Ismail!!!
Traditional Malay Cuisine…It’s our FOOD, finally we’re back to our Malaysian Food…

Me and Chef Ismail

We had tasted and enjoyed Italian, Indian, Arabic, Japanese, Chinese and France Cuisine…

We have more than 2 hours here…Food are ready to be served actually…BUT its odd…It was left UNTOUCHED… no one were encircling the food…

Where and what are they doing? Its feeding time already, should grab a bite of that…
They are busying with their……Cameras and handphones…Flashes, Snaps, ‘Ka-Chak’ and ‘Chesse!’…and ‘here, here, here come over here! ’

Hehehe, I guess you all know what are they doing now,right?
Its hard to say GOODBYE you know…I perhaps You do experienced before…Its norm for them to act like this…they don’t want to say IT so they took picture
“A photo worth a thousand words, tears worth thousand memories…”

~this took about 50 minutes~
All I can see is ‘Smile’ BUT they can’t lie to me…Their eyes speaks for themselves…signifying sadness

Not to say I’m very emo BUT a Cancerian is very sensitive to people’s expression and WE see through it in detail…Every actions and facial expression…to us YOUR emotion(s) are very important…and we do care for that…
Pity with the food there…Amen

WE have YAWA as entertainment!!!

3 or 4 girls danced with the drumbeat…and more and more comes in!!!
Dance and get crazy in the beat…GET HIGH
to watch and feel the dance please kindly visit
~ cyrus-spark.blogsot.com
He’s my roommate, best friend(newly-met), although I always make him don’t sleep in the middle of night…
BUT I do want to thank him, very thankful to him, to had him in Spark!
=Thank you, Cyrus=

We also had a session Pour-It-Out, to talk thing(s) that you kept for a long tme in Spark! and the last word for your friends here in Spark!
~I talked, and it was about 10 minutes, touching moment(I think, agree? Post me your comment Sparkers)

1. Happy to be here, met everyone-a bunch of crazy people
2. Learn a lot of things, funs and “high”
3. Very thankful to John, without him I can’t imagine what I would be…he taught
me 1 very important thing that is…
“Junior’s word sometimes are correct and seniors ought to listen and never ignore their words, we as seniors sometimes are wrong and ignorant…”
=Thank you, John…Thank you…from the bottom of my heart=
……………

Spark! 4th Day (part 4)

2008-09-02T12:31:00.000+08:00

=a bit long-winded again, please, do gave me your patience=

Zoom...another 45 minutes to Rebung Restaurant owned by Chef Ismail…BUT this very moment…Everyone includes me,although not all,started to show their very true feeling…Right after we heard some words from Emily(a facilitator, the manager)
“…lets have some fun in the Last Dinner together, I hope everyone will be strong and you know don’t…at there,be strong and be happy to be together with your friends and enjoy the dinner…”
Just when I entered the bus, my mood had already at the LOWEST,as I realize this is the Last Dinner of the week and in addition of Emily’s word…I burst into tears again…this time I cried even harder,very very hard…
It’s hurt…I’m not happy with this…It’s cruel,I can’t bear to leave them…NO!!!
Luckily there were Joshua(KL-sit beside me),Khai(KL-at my back),Gene(Johor-sits in front of me)
“Ooi!don’t cry,Cedric.What’s wrong with you?”-Joshua
“I can’t take it anymore…I don’t like this,I don’t want to leave!...”
“Hey friend,everyone also can’t bear to leave,just like you…But they accept
the fact-we had to say Goodbye…”-Khai
“Ya Ced, be strong, don’t cry, everyone here misses each other, it’s the miss makes them strong”-Gene
“Gene was right, if you don’t want your friendship to die, it won’t die!”-Khai
“Just think positively, accept the TRUTH and REALITY…”-Joshua
“Just bear with it, don’t just cry, think of a way to preserve the ‘ship’ isn’t it better?”-Khai
……shiek,shiek…
“Know what? Just today morning when having breakfast…I finally awake from the long sleep(hibernated for years deep in the heart)…”
“…John…told me something(in previous page)…although it’s a bit makes sarcastic, he do makes sense…and I finally realize what I’ve looking for,the last piece-the missing piece…found”
“Everyone had their very unique life story and for me… It’s about friends from primary, finished in secondary; alone for years after losing them because of ‘rebellious’>>>I had to leave them…We’re not the same feathers anymore…
~For years hunting for the same feathers but went down in vain~”
“Here, in Spark! I met a few…BUT it’s a bit short of time…John and Cyrus for example…and Why?Why! Today, awaken? By him? A buddy younger by a year old…
I really can’ bear to leave just like that…I want to know them more! I need more time!…”
“That’s pre-DESTINED, you had met him here by CHANCE, you came into this bus, same bus with him! and AFFINITY directs you to met him, I believe you also took the initiative to communicate with him right from the first minute, right? ” –Khai
“What had to be done, had done, its all up to DESTINY, time I should say”
-Gene
“Don’t worry a lot, since you are meant to meet them, you will meet them again somewhere in the future! I believe in that!”-Joshua
“You do make a good friend. See for yourself, how many people cried that hard like you, for friends? You should feel proud for that, it’s a minute number for one to cry for friend”-Khai
“You are a true friend, you are will be blessed to hunt down your same feathers!”-Joshua
“Keep it up man, keep going on, our heart will beat as one wherever we are, whenever we were…”-Khai
……I wipe my tears…and a bit asthmatic…I took a deep breath…Comfortable again…though my eyes a bit red BUT I do feel happy, to have them consoled me…
We got down the bus…Happy, Beautiful and Fantastic MOMENT awaits us are about to be IGNITED…BEWARE

Spark! 4th Day (part 3)

2008-09-02T12:30:00.000+08:00

After finishing lunch-Hong Kong Chinese Cuisine…Yummy!!!
We had to rush to the Town Hall of DiGi(actually it’s the big standard size basketball court)…for what?
For the last workshop! the Theatre and Expression Through Speech, Improv and Thinking on Your Feet workshop by Edwin Sumun(introduced already) and
Chris Ng
(For the past 10 years,he volunteered for various NGOs working on empowerment, developments and educational programmes for children and youth. He encourages and educates youth about HIV/AIDS through their participation in theatre arts. He has been awarded the United Nations (Malaysia) Award 2003 and Daimler Chrysler Red Ribbon Media Award 2004 for his outstanding and creative works in education youth on HIV/AIDS using theatre and drama as mediums.)
We trained to open-vocal…humming the vowel A-E-I-O-U…over and over…
We did some Run-and-Stop, Slow Motion and many-many more…
First highlight will be the Sculptor and Clay…
A be the sculptor and B be the Clay…A sculpt any expression they want on B…everyone switches Sculptors…they can do any changes on others Clay…and HAHAHA…that’s the word…
~after that~
A and B switch role…again…BWAHAHAHA…
Second highlight will be ‘3 Freeze Image Drama’
There are 10 groups of us…4~7 people…There are a lot of fun BUT I can’t reallymake it in words…Below are the 3 images of my group…with the Theme,Freedom…

Spark! 4th Day (part 2)

2008-09-02T12:28:00.000+08:00

…Travel to the D’House again, we had forum, speeches, laughters and debates in the bus…Noise everynow and then
Today’s talk are a bit boring actually…Basically its all about the product and brands by DiGi…
DiGi’s adds, Fu-Yoh, and Happy…
BUT we had 1 thing here…The Yellow Coverage Fellow!!!(Yellow-man)
We take picture with them and some of us take polarized photo…of course all are sponsored by DiGi!!!
That’s all we had for today…last talk and hynotheraphy

Spark! 4th Day (part 1)

2008-08-29T09:47:00.001+08:00

Ahoome...its 5.30am...my roommate-Cyrus had woke up SMSing with her gf...(first love, can’t be bothered, even I don’t have that)...
It’s a nice TEMPERATURE. My dear roommate very cared for me(Thank you,Cyrus if you sees this) and he’s also an Earthlings that dislikes cool air from air-conds...(fan power=2,temp=23~25)

You might think it’s a bit hot, BUT for US its just nice...We love Green Earth, say no to CFC!!!

We went down to...exercise...Hehehe, today is an interesting exercise...What’s it?
Hybrid Krump, actually it’s a combination of a few dance...

What interesting was...The Dance Fight...I only saw it in Step Up BUT NOW!!! Its in front of my eyes!! Unluckily my camera run out of battery SO no picture for that! Its in my mind...sweet and amazing...
After the dance, we have our 30 over minutes to sparkle ourselves up. Of course, shower and comb our hair...and went down for breakfast...

Interesting things happened and makes me AWAKEN from the long sleep since Form3...he wake me up, John Lim(17yrs-old)...I thanked him, here GRANDLY and OFFICIALLY in front of everyone who viewed this page...

“...why you always like to use the word that are hard to understand and sometimes
it confusing, you know? You should brush up your vocab, don’t always makes
your sentence too abstract, hard for others to understand...”

I do feel angry and I admit I hated that...A bit gunshot, sinister and sarcastic...BUT I say BUT!!! This will comes in with explanation afterwards...(John if you do sees this please do so, continue scroll till you found the part before dinner)...

Spark! 3rd Day (part 6)

2008-08-29T09:34:00.001+08:00

(Please control, control your emotion and mood that are influenced and touched from the previous page...I’m sorry for that)

What’s for the menu today?
Its Northern Indian Cuisine!!! Also known as Arabic Cuisine...
The food served may be strange and bizarre...BUT its more than meets the eye!!
Like jajik, humus and many-many more...I really can’t recall all the names...Opps and there was lamb meat...

There was henna-tattoos(traditional tattoos using plant extract like Inai)

Tonight, we had something special for Entertainment...That’s Belly Dance...
We can’t take it!!! You know it will be very hot and interesting...The dancer even taught us a few steps of Belly dance...

and of course we do had a lot of fun that night...Tomorrow will be even more…
Expect the Unexpected...

ZzzZZZZ..but before that I had my shower,ok guys?

Spark! 3rd Day (part 5)

2008-08-29T09:32:00.000+08:00

~a bit long-winded but please give me your support and patience...I appreciate that...

...Rush and off we go! Back to Shah’s Village Hotel at about 7.00pm...
Yeah you bet it! No shower, just tidy yourself blah-blah-blah...Then you are WRONG!!!
My roommate-Cyrus and I had enough time to shower and on time to go up the bus!!!
Today...tonight everyone are Gorgeous, Beautiful, Smart(like me), Awesome, Cool and WOW!!!
These appointed to everyone (all Sparkers) because we worn the MOST AWESOME t-CLOTHES in our luggage...as this is the last night ,last dinner for us to wear casually...
Why? Because for tomorrow-the last night, we definitely straight from D’House to dinner...

Everyone are ready to set-off and up to the bus...

(For the next few lines, for every very emotional Homo Sapiens please don’t scroll and read, you probably flood your PC)
In the bus, things came so sudden, too fast. I think of
Its 2nd last night of the program, 2 days after that we had to bade, goodbye and farewell to all this newly built friendships and friends...

...My tears had already wet my eyeballs BUT haven’t rolled down yet!its just gone red...I asked Edwin-he was in the bus...
“How do we, humans, I can control tears, not to cry easily?”

“There are no ways to control tears(cries),JUST LET IT OUT, when you feel you
wanted cry just CRY...then only you know how to stop and control it. Just cry
Cedric, no one will laugh on you, its human nature”

...I cried, hard and my heart feels pain and aches...

“I hated to cry BUT somehow after crying I feel RELAXED, COMFORTABLE and
AWAKENED , But still things that are supposed to happen still can’t be changed”

“Know what Cedric, It took me 3 years to cry-out-loud after my father death. I
don’t want my mother sees me cry because it shows Great Sadness and for
elderly, they are sensitive. We can’t cry in front of them. They will become even
sad. In the end, I cried. Its torturing for one to hold cries. Crying is a human
nature, the meaning of ADMIT and BRAVE...Human cries Cedric,Just let it out!!!”

PAMM!!! Flash flood, my face wet...I cried because I can’t bear to let these newly-met friends go...It hurts, deeply...

.............I dried myself up, I don’t want my friends to lose their appetite because of me...although my eyes, reddish and went down the bus...OFF we go for the dinner-the UNEXPECTED DINNER...hehehe

Spark! 3rd day (part 4)

2008-08-29T09:31:00.000+08:00

...tick-tock-tick-tock(clock ticking)...after a short break, we have to meet our Mentors again(mine Mia of course)...
We have to come out with a song to be sang on Fireworks on the 5th day...

Our team are split into 2 sub groups...so that we can came out with 2 songs, altered lyrics...

Firstly, we had to come out with 10 songs
Secondly, only choose 1 song that everyone in the group familiar with, even just
knows how to hum it
Thirdly, change the lyrics!(we chose “The Day You Went Away” by M2M)
Fourthly, name it(we name it as Sparkling Memories)
Fifthly, memorize the lyric, practice and practice and PRACTICE!!!

=> want to know more? On what the lyric sounds like? Just keep on scrolling till the
5th day(Fireworks)

Spark! 3rd day (part 3)

2008-08-29T09:30:00.000+08:00

Guess what?! Its song Writing time! By Mia Palencia! Give a big clap for her...applause-We must support Malaysian Celeb as a Malaysian,remember she’s a Sabahans!

Its Mia Palencia!!!

She spared us her precious time with us, it’s a very touching, proud and honoured moment...as she had her 2nd or 3rd album on the heat in Indonesia!

She is singing her song, Sayang

She had written her very own song since the age of 17(if I wasn’t mistaken, was it 14? Well, bloggers help me check it out!) and now she’s a Recognised Song Writer!
Now, she’s going to share with us here song writing ‘Kung Fu’,KAPOW right?
BUT I’m not going to spit the ‘Martial Arts’she taught...NANENYBUBU
because it’s the same as the page before this,so SKIP!

Crack and blow-up your head to think out of a lyric!!!

At the end of the workshop, she gave everyone her latest album!
“Finding My Way”
-to listen to her song please kindly visit www.popfolio.net/miapalencia

..........

Spark! 3rd Day (part 2)

2008-08-28T10:31:00.000+08:00

Today…I mean everyday also learn a lot of things,BUT just for today…It’s a bit overloaded…how many Gig of memory card would not be enough…
The talk, ya you know blabbering, murmuring and hypnotising…
If you think its that, then you were wrong!!! GREAT GREAT WRONG my dear…

Its all about the road, the path and the route we would be facing…and only,ONLY CHOOSE one!!!
And that we would need some INSPIRATION, SPARKS, SIGNAL and NOTATION in life before we came to this…a T-junction…to the left or to the right…
No one choose or forces you to pick or to decide…the word is
YOU YOURSELF
You choose the route, create the path and open the road…
-The Road not Taken-

and there was a talk on CHALLENGE…what challenge?
You go and figure it out! Every time spoon-fed you all, unfair for us you know…
Hehehe, just kidding…
Nothing much to touch on that as its just all about EXPERIENCE OF LIFE from 4 speakers in Corporate Affairs from D’House
As time goes by you will probably get fed-up with it but BUT…
Just bear the below phrases in mind…
“Keep your child-like in life and not childish”-

Spark! 3rd Day (part 1)

2008-08-28T10:18:00.000+08:00

…Hmm anybody has or have an idea on what we are going to do this morning?
Yeahh~you got it, its exercising!!!
BUT, I say BUT… we are going to have Body Conditioning!!!
or also known as Body Tuning…
You know what will be going on right?
No doubt, no worries…that is you probably hears someone complaining pain as you know some people here never tune their body like ME!!!GET RUSTY…
As though I am going to give birth and OUCH my back here and there…

Hey! don't snap me again,,I had a tough time here for stretching

Ouch!my back...

And…SWEAT of course….my shirt,UGH, it stinks…imagine threw it into a river, fishes died, immediately floats on the river!!!(too exaggerated)

Unfortunately, I have no chance to sparkle myself instead the same old way…
JUST DRIED UP…with TOWEL of course, what do you think will be?

Very pity with my poor roommate Cyrus-I shifted room OFFICIALLY and met this interesting guy…though he also he did the same as we really don’t have time for shower…JUST GROOM ourselves up and off we go for breakfast and to D’House

,….Hmm, imagine the D’House filled with some stinks and pungent “Salty Fish”…
even I also cannot imagine that…JUST SMILE

Spark! 2nd Day (part 4)

2008-08-27T10:08:00.000+08:00

Edwin in Indian suit!!!!
Handsome, awesome and cool right?

We had Southern India Cuisine as dinner…Ya, right the food we deal with are SPICES!!!
this opened our eyes BIG and BRIGHT and CLEAR…many food prepared,never met before except for ROTI NAN and other than that, ‘what is THIS?!!”

this night we are arranged into groups of 9 to 10 according to spices name…girls and guys in 1 table…and guess what? I and my table hit the jackpot!!! We are the only table of only GUYS!!!

1-Man-Table!!!

Today the dinner were not just that…there was a talk(not again,the third talk of the day)
BUT its all about MONEY WISE…and I will not talk and elaborate much because its very long BUT I listed out all the question for you all…just scroll down and answer it and e-mail to me if can coze I will not probably add-on the answers…

How many CREDIT CARDS would you like?
Why should I worry money now?
Who wants to live forever?
What do you want to be?
What’s love got to do with it(money)?
Imagine that that you had 6 tickets on personal luxury cruise on a Largest Ship in the World…You decided to go, left 5 more tickets, who would you bring along?
No siblings, family or any blood line relationships…just friends…

After the dinner as usual we had to go for blogging and after that…zzzzZZZZZ

Spark! 2nd Day (part3)

2008-08-26T10:28:00.000+08:00

Right after lunch(we had Japanese Cuisine by Sushi King!!!) we went to the TOWN HALL of D’ House-size of a standard basketball field…what we will be doing? We’re going to dance and led by Guna(award winning dancer and choreographer specializes in Indain Classical ans Contemporary Dance,he will be performing in Caregie Hall in New York)…

What I learnt from him was…my joints and many parts of my body were very RUSTY…OUCH and OH NO every now and then since the workshop started…
I learnt on how to dance of course or else it won’t be named as Dance Workshop but actually its Dance and Expression Through Movement…seems complicated BUT not even a bit…just the phrase… “Just Dance”…although there is a time that we had to express a lot of facial expression with a sad-tone-music…until everyone had emotional confusion and some even cried hard(mainly girls)…

and of course a tea break followed by Spark! Time…meeting our mentors for preparations for the Fireworks Spark! Performance…

my team-Song Writing team…had to prepare a song that you had to write and sing your very own song…we taught to;
think a title or them of your song,
choose a Ghost song(a song that you want to refer to),
list out the things that you’re going to talk about,(according to your theme)
change/alter the lyrics of the chosen Ghost song,(according to the syllable)
then sing it,
if you’re satisfied with the lyric you written…
LASTLY, change and create you own melody…
PUFF!!! Your very own song BORNED!!!

Here as a starting kit for us to know the technique to write a song, Mia Palencia selected RASA SAYANG as a ghost song…well the lyrics are as below…try it out!!!

Thank you Digi for this amazing experience,
Friendship builds up in 5 days,
But last forever ever…

S-P-A-R-K a fun filled program,
On 18th August 2008(two thousand and eight),
The cute mentors and all the sparkers
Build up friendship and Spark! the whole world…

S-P-A-R-K unexpected program,
From West to East Malaysia we came,
Everybody here spark together,
Shattering notions for our future…
Repeat chorus…

Spark 2nd Day part 2

2008-08-26T10:23:00.000+08:00

after the BIG SWEAT we only had 20 minutes to tidy ourselves up…and that is impossible for one to bath and as had roommate in it…so majority all of us just changed cloth and off to D’ House…

well,you would had imagine that there is another talk…BUT surprisingly the speaker-a DiGi worker(honestly I forgot his name already) was very humorous and enthusiastic that makes us open our eyes and attentively listen to his talk…his talk was all about choices that one has to made in their future…Choices that will determine who and what you’re to be…JUST BE YOURSELF…

AND there is another talk too(2 talk at one row with a short break)…its about Telecommunication…it’s a little bit boring BUT not at all…surely the speaker are also funny and makes Her talk lively as the talk deals a lot of electricals and electronics…from GSM(Global System for Mobile Communication) to SIM Card(Subscriber Identity Module) to many many more acre name that I don’t remember……

Spark! 2nd Day (part 1)

2008-08-25T14:36:00.000+08:00

I woke up 5.20am with my nose going to dropped off as my dear nose is a combination of allergic and sensitive nose problems...THE TEMPERATURE INDICATED ON THE AIR-COND REMOTE WAS 19!!! plus the cold condition of morning air...

I bang into toilet,got myself bathed and selling Brownian cake(Nature’s call)
and out of the dear room as IF I stay longer I should be tuned up in the clinic and missed this GREAT SPARK! PROGRAM...

Luckily not but my nose need and urge for rest and free from any TRIGGERS-free from any smell that are crucial for allergic and sensitive nose...

...we had Cardio-Kickboxing(Mortal combat)...actually I thought it will tough for me as a >80kg, <170cm>

Spark!-1st Day (part 2)

2008-08-25T14:31:00.000+08:00

The very 1st dinner we had in Spark! was ITALIAN CUISINE, In Daily Grind...
When we arrived THERE...we met our mentors(group mentors)
Talking about that we had 5 groups that is Photographers, Production, Dance, Song Writing and Drama...

I was arranged in Song Writing...Guess what?my I mean our mentor is Mia Palencia!!! The song writer, jazz crooner, voice actor, public speaker and a theatre personality from Sabah,Kota Kinabalu...Fantastic right? Can anyone imagine that we got the chance to get SO NEAR with a celebrities than anyone else!!!WOW-that’s the only word I can express...

I enjoyed the Italian Cuisine although I had some or a little problem with it...
the appetizers were good BUT not really for Entrée...
we had 3 different pasta...spirals, spaghetti and one more, I don’t know what the name of it,its just look like a bow shape...
3 different favour, cheesy, sweet and sour plus a little bit of spicy and cheesy mushroom…

All the “cheese” ,in the first mouth(haven’t chew) was BLEK(vomit expression)!!! Digusting and UGH strong cheese foul smell...BUT when you chew...the fragrance took over your cavity...and the word is WOW, Nice...
the Dessert was ok BUT not OK for everyone starting from Entrée...especially for the Sabahans...they said the smell of the cheese makes their stomach inverted and YOU know lah whats for next...its not odd to see this actually, reason to explain this was just culture-Cultural Difference...that’s what I learnt from them...

we went back to Shah’s about 9.45pm...arrived by 10.30pm...

in the middle of the journey...YOU expect it...a non-stop bus yah correct BUT appointed for our mouth! There is a guy called Moana-from Ampang...He is the One started every single topic in the bus...

That’s not all for the day before we go to bed! We had to update our blog!
It’s a long queue for that as just only 10 laptops available...and the internet were a little bit slow...

Then off to bed...very funny thing about my roommate was,there are 3 of them- me,Moana and Mahendran(Melaka)...Mahen sleeps with thick sweaters and track bottom BUT Moana did not...just a short with himself topless...
Air-cond(20 degree Celsius)...

zzzZZZZ

Spark!-1st Day (part 1)

2008-08-25T14:16:00.000+08:00

Spark! program ignited in the BUS...why?
Its by STRANGERS from all over Malaysia from Johor to Perlis and from Sabah to Sarawak...
Can you imagine or not? STRANGERS that doesn’t know each other,the BUS was filled with NOISE!!!
Everyone each and one were talking to each other!!! Seems as if they know each other for years...there were JOKES,LAUGHTERS and FORUMS in the bus...

-well this is normal as we were Sparkers which has special personality and very own STYLE that Sparks among peers-
-interactive, communicates and conversations are possible and it’s a must although we never met each other once...

the journey from Shah’s to D’House estimated about 45 minutes and in the journey all we had in the bus is TALK-OUT-LOUD...no such things as SHY, BLUSH and BROKEN LANGUAGE...just TALK!!!

When we arrived D’ House...the SCENERY and ARTISTIC STYLE of the buildings of the D’House amazed us...

???want to know more??? I uploaded a few pictures of it...Just continue to scroll down...

Here...started off the 1st workshop...”Photography and Expression Through Images”...nothing to talk much as it was toooooo INTERSTING...no comments and errs just one word-Fun!
The talk given by Asyraf Lee(20-years old,youngest professional photographer in Malaysia!)
my photographing skills had boosted a lot! b4 the talk all I know was just snap the picture or images,that’s done for it BUT...after the talk snapping composed of a lot of skill and emotions

to take a LIVELY picture..........

all of the below are some nice picture in D'House....enjoy yourself!!!!

Get Spark-off!!!

2008-08-25T14:12:00.000+08:00

Sorry that for the long waits since one week ago...
BECAUSE I was selected to go for Spark! by DiGi Telecommunication...
As a punishment for me for your long wait, I will share my experience and moments when I was in this Spark! program...

Well, where shall I start...How about from PUDURAYA Bus Terminal?
At 11.00am my friend and I from Batu Pahat...arrived
the Spark! facilitators had been waiting for us more had waited more than an hour
as we ENTERED Puduraya at 12pm!!! We got caught in the traffic jam!!!

She, Kak Ifa(facilitators) patiently wait for us and met with us then sent us to Shah’s Village Hotel...
It was very rush as we were late by 2 hours because the program started-Participants Check-In were at 10.30am!!!
We got ourselves changed into Sparkers t-shirt at that second and get into the bus to D-House(DiGi Headquarter)...

Special, interesting AND CRAZIEST things Sparked-Off!!!......officially

Spark! daily report...

2008-08-24T12:17:00.000+08:00

Sorry everyone,each and one of you...today I don't have much time to blog BUT post this short SHORT blog...

What Report?
Its about Spark! a hot topic for the week,maybe last for months...and theres toooo many thing to write,I really possible to post it on time...BUT I assure you that tommorow you may get the report, THE STORY and EXPERIENCes in Spark! organised by DiGi...

Stay tuned for my blog tommorow at about 3pm (Malaysia time)

Stay blogged and see you tommorow!!!

1st Day of Spark!~Photo Expression on Face Describing~

2008-08-18T23:03:00.000+08:00

Hehehe...this all the 1st day in the bus...an expression of "Excitement"

1st Day of Spark!~What are your expectations for the week?~

2008-08-18T22:59:00.000+08:00

Hopefully a CONTINUOUS of UNSTOPPABLE and NON-STOP as well as NON-PAUSING breath-taking program...

to fullfill our and my long yearning from the SPECIAL from Spark! Digi...

1st Day of Spark!~What' are your impression of today?~

2008-08-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

It was a rainy day at Pudu Raya...
I and my friend were just arrived here 11.35pm...
rush and sweat as we had to Charge...

things change to GREAT and FANTASTiC as we arrive to D House on time...
very first time for me to step into Petaling Jaya for the first time on my VIRGIN step..

Spark! packed and on with NICE and UNDENIABLE SHOCKING program like learning photography and many more...

JUMP JUMP to Conclusion..
Impressionss...
Just simple words...

SPECIAL, UNEXPECTED and NEW EXPERIENCE...
different from other and those camps I entered for past few years...
THANKS Spark! for all the new unexperienced experiences...

LEO CLUB INTERNATIONAL STUDENT EXCHANGE PROGRAM

2008-08-17T12:08:00.001+08:00

Well based on the title every each of one of you surely know what it is...
Actually I don't really know the definition of this program but I think its=a cultural and tradition exchange and learning program overseas...

My, I mean Our school LEO CLUB had participated this program and IMPORTED 2 Japanese girl for 3 days...
Thanks to our school LEO CLUB President I learned and widened my view and minset on others people culture and tradition...

and It is also an honour for me to be with the same form with the J-girls...
because not everyone had that kind of chance and oppurtunity...

We had a hard time to communicate with the 2 J-girls at the first time as we don't really know how to speak Japanese=their mother tongue...

my friends of the same class with the girls tried hard to speak simple English but their effort goes down to the drain because J-girls only knows English that spoken in their moyher toungue...

I came forward to communicate with them(friends surrounding me)...They(J-girls)knows what I've said but not my friends because...

I SPEAK in JAPANESE ENGLISH...

why I had the ability to do that?
Its by watching a lot of anime and manga of Japan animation like D-Gray man, Naruto, Bleach and many more...

Friends of my STUNTED their eye and a lot of QUESTION MARK surrounding their head...
as they tell themselves
"WHAT ON EARTH YOUR'RE SPEAKIng!!! "

well I will continue my ADVEBTURE on meeting J-girls after I came back coming Saturday

-To Be Continued-

Spark! is ON!!!

2008-08-17T11:59:00.000+08:00

Sorry that for such a long days I did not upload a new post since two weeeks ago...
But today I would like to brindg everyone a good news...

THAT IS...
My blog had been selected! as one of 60 qualified contestant nationwide in Malaysia...
to go for DIGI Spark! Mindset Program!!!

Thanks for everyone gave me your support and patiently read my very ODD blog as I am just a BLACK HORSE in making blog...

I will be away from 18 August to 22 August, at Petaling Jaya...
Stay Tuned for my new experience and fantastic memory here in SECRET SAGE blog!!!
See you there!

Spark:Tell us in 300 words or less something in life that you are passionate about, why and how you plan to pursue your passion.

2008-08-05T15:12:00.001+08:00

Passionate about...
A happy, simple and a little of complex, crowded with friends, time were packed of activities that are relaxing and destress usage and night with sweet dreams that will lead me to tomorrow morning...

Such a young age like me...why always think of these kind of old man's nonsense word?
actually I can't really know how to explain these things in words for why I passion these things...only the one with unmeasureable experience and with fantastic life story will know...

Just like what I said before, I love to indulge in friendful life...
so,I rather stick to my PRINCIPLE...Friends anytime and anywhere...

Sweet dream for the whole night and if possible as often as possible...
A nice sleep brings a freshier and merrier tomorrow...
nothing to worried about for there were no nightmare or fear to go to sleep...
Insomia will stay away from you...
Longevity and vitality are obtained...although not for eternality...

Simple with a little bit of complex life...
If were too simple,life is meaningless...better to be a LOTUS EATER
No complex life,you will not grow...

optimum is the best...

Spark:Your “alter ego”?

2008-08-05T14:53:00.000+08:00

Alternatif ego?...
hehehe,you're kidding right,aren,t you?

BUT sad to say is I were to turn out something alternatif...something outrageous...the world may turn upside down...JUST me alone...DEVASTATION and DESTRUCTION...

How??
Of course I'm not up to that incredible and invincible stage...
What I can is POLLUTE MIND...

KAPOW!!! Isn't it?what on Earth is this POLLUTE MIND?
actually is just influencing only...
human mind can be invulnerable and at the same time can be also very fragile...
As an example, a few words may led somebody to go suicide...amazing right?

For me...
I alters one's mind to be much much stronger than others and even savage by darkness of fear...

BUT I seldom to put one in fear...I normally gave them more strength and enpower their perception...

sad to say that no one knows this because they think what I talked to them were just merely Philosophy...actually it's not ITS MORE THAN MEETS THE EYE...
the effects is still there and occurred...just he himself isn't aware of..

ALTERNATE EGO is my SECRET and thus borned
me...

SECRET SAGE STEEL....

Spark: If you were walking down the street and found RM 50, what would you do with it?

2008-08-04T15:48:00.000+08:00

...I would photo it and publish in the local internet and even print it out and paste it on the lamp poles and even on the floor where I found the note...

...I kept it for a month and after that I will take it as granted...

...If between the period of 1 month the owner came,I will gave the note back to the original owner...

Spark: Your best day EVER! (why?)

2008-08-04T14:57:00.000+08:00

My BEST day...Let me see through it...I think it's the day I met my Latest New Friend...Rex...

Isn't this very BORING? Isn't it everyday in and out for sure to met new friends...
This is something very common,why would I categorize it as the BEST DAY EVER?

Its because I have been yearn for this day,praying for a few years for HIM...I awaited for his presence and existence for long long unbearable days and months and years...No one had ever had this kind of experience before but I DID!!!

Why unbearable days?
...Things started of like this...

A few years way back, about 5 years ago...
I had a lot of friend and those days with these friends since primary school...
We entered the same secondary school although not all of them...
For the first few months,no problem just like old days...
BUT nightmare started after that...
I believe everyone heard of this REBELLIOUS-a stage whereby adolescences hunting and searching their own identity...
This was just like epidemic which strikes my friends, all of them except me...

Their habits, personality and thoughts changed drastically...
Until I can't accept it but to sever all ties and left them aside as MEMORY..
Was I foolish or childish or even TOO MATURE its up to bloggers to JUDGE me...
But YOU had to put yourself in my shoes...and that will makes sense as WRITTEN WORDS CAN'T EXPLAINS AS CLEAR AS SPOKEN WORDS...

I "ISOLATED" myself and suffered from Unbearable,Undeniable and Unstoppable
-Lonesome-

At night, I feared to sleep as I would dreamt of painful past...

Drowned in darkness of fear,sorrow and loneliness...

_5 years later_Just a few months ago, I met Rex-THE ONE...
This day had finally came,started off with a simple and CLASSIC dialogue...

"Hello,nice to see you,may I know your name?"

That particular night was a night I slept without any doubts and hesitation...Tears wet my pillow...Flushed off my sorrow,fear and loneliness...BUT the tears are meant for HAPPINESS...

He proven me that I wasn't no more friends but its the matter of suits you or not which stands for "AFFINITY"...

I'm glad to met him...to had him as friend...beside me always...wherever and whenever...
I'm now grabbing the oppurtunity,here I will like to say.......

THANK YOU,Rex...Thank you very very much...

this is my best day ever in my 18-years-old life...

Spark; What is your creative talent? How do you best express yourself? Can you show us an example?

2008-08-04T14:44:00.001+08:00

My creative talent?
Looks like I'm going to dissapoint you because my talent is just Colour Mixing...

Now what's this Colour Mixing?
Mixing of two or more colour to produce a new species of COLOUR-a very own personalise and meaningful colour...

How do I best express myself?
Normal just like others do...Happy gives smile,sad shows desperated facial...
And surely when I was in frustration,I show no facial expression-no smile and even a single twitching of my facial muscle...

I would put down everything and RELAX and there are often time I start mixing colour again and again...till the problem solved or I had settled down...

Spark: Where do you see yourself in 15 years?

2008-08-04T14:40:00.000+08:00

I see myself in a school-a Secondary School Teacher…

teaching and harvesting new professionals as well as individual that will have high achievement for the public…

I will be a noble and respected secondary school teacher-specialize in Biology and Chemistry…

a nice combo subject in Pure Science Class…

these two particular subject creates and created vast field of coverage in Science field…although these two subject commonly hated and irritated by youngsters mainly because of large density of terminology…

I follows the Teaching and Learning(P&P) method that was used by my teachers…every teacher has their very own unique method but I’m certainly that their method NEVER had any loopholes…

I compound few number of teaching method from my teachers and BORNED my very own SECRET RECEPI…

GURU CEMERLANG…

I achieved it…but this will takes place in my very early teaching life…as there were only a few young teachers were honoured this…and I will be one of them too!!!

I am enjoying my teaching life, with other teachers…

Life never been bored as I am surrounded by students with different personality and habits…throughout my life

Spark: What colour represents you?

2008-08-01T15:18:00.000+08:00

Blue, I perhaps...
The colour that represents me and suits me all along...

Why?Why blue?Which kind of blue?
Blue represents;
~secret
~mysterious
~calm
~smooth
~light
~wise
The blue colour at twilight sky...

All of the above suits me well...Secret Sage...
Quiet but wise...
Secret but Famous
Wise but NOT TOO

I gave people at my side comfort,relax and smile...
Whenever they feel low,down,sad,unhappy and frustrated...
Gets near to me and anything botheribg then LIFTED by me...

Like blue colour, whenever people sees blue...they feel calm and destressed...
cooling and secured...

Think of BLUE, Think of me Secret Sage....

Spark:What makes you,you?

2008-08-01T14:50:00.000+08:00

Well, I am popular in people's mind-my name will always be in their mind whenever their brain is/are STILL functioning...

I have or actually had the talent, the will and the POWER to analyse, to differentiate and to alter one's thought...

How is this so?

For example, a friend of mine TRAPPED DEEPLY into the pond of love till, I think ,he had touches the base of the pond....

I tried to persuade him to be on the right path that is "Study Comes First"-he is still a 14-year-old boy...

But I failed,

But this did'nt KNOCK ME DOWN

Things settled just like this...

I asked him...
"What is your aim of life?"

"Malaysia top SWIMMER"he replied

"If you were stuck HERE just because of SURE-FADE-PUPPY-LOVE,

is it worth it?"I asked...

He cried...in front of me,on my shoulder,tears rolled and wet my shirt...

Now,he study hard and no love till he finishes tertiary study-He promised...

I get more and more 'patient' came for me to diagnose...

Problems such as rebellious,addicted to Cyber Cafe,girlfriend,urge for sex....

many many more on teenage crisis...

I shined as the most matured teenager in my school...teachers also heard of my name...everyday from every classes whenever they talked about solutions on teenage problems...

And this makes me, me...special and differs from other normal teenager...